shut up or you'll get paid!!!!

2011-10-10T14:25:00.000-07:00

ok...i should sing a song but...seriously, it's been so freaking damn long since i posted my blog....

i know.......i know....sometimes in life you gotta be busy working on things..like work,school and such...

i wanna make a proposal.....or more like a......decision...that's easy enough and maybe in trouble a little bit...but i have thought about this a long,long time....ok,here it goes....

1) i have been thinking that,if i'm in a mood of stress or depress.i thought it will be good enough to paint my nails in RED.....yes...red....the colour which i freaking think that it suits with the mood...

2) chinese guys....what do i have against them......errrrr....NOTHING!!!! they are well loving and kind enough...and i like them...but it's nice if they have CARS..not motors......like for real.......

3) my hair.........yes my.....dear hair..i think it's nice if you could go for treatment once every....ermmm....3 months or 2....ok...i think it's the best way to keep you healthy...like really fuller and nice....and curled.

4) schools.......i've thought about it.and........i think that it is important that schools are important in my life...although i may not know what i want in life but maybe i could find it along the way....just maybe.....

5) Boyfriends............i'm not keen or "despo" to find one.but.....maybe...just maybe.i need one to......just stay with me in times of hardships and happiness....

I think that would be enough..but if i have to add,then i will add.but i'll guess for the time being.this would be enough.and yes,i have a lot of secrets in mind, but, i think i'll just wrote down on my diary...just in case..coz it's safe and no one will know.although it may go on the wrong hands but...it's possible.or impossible...which is which....

2011-05-04T15:59:00.000-07:00

Fuck!!!!!

Merepk karots!!!!! Hahahahaha!!!!
Updating blog using this bullshit (itouch), that its not even mine.....fuck this shits!!!!!
Anyway,still haven't find a suitable job...and yes I join part-time school in ITE, I took visual comm...
Still waiting for the letter though....and it's nitec not higher nitec....gees....
It's raining heavily and the freaking thunder is freaking me out like a totall piss!!!!!
Yes I'm a pussy girl whose afraid of thunder storms....so???? Everyone's is afraid of something right...right????!!!

*sigh*
Sometimes I wonder why am I here. On earth??? Why am I sitting here,doing something like this and not somewhere else doing something else??? Alot of question that hasn't been answer....but there's one thing about me that alot of people including my family... Don't know
I have been very patience to alot of people I know and been keeping secrets to alot people, not only that I'm actually in depression....
Yes depression that can lead to suicide and such...but I'm not into killing myself because I love myself, I would always told myself that whatever happens, it must be for a reason...even though it hurts alot!!!!

What's the story behind your Formspring username?

2011-05-01T19:43:00.001-07:00

well....Ee is my nick name and giler.....my sisters use to call me that...hahaha

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2011-03-28T02:29:00.000-07:00

wow!!!! haha...

been busy with tumblr and i forget about you.....haha...too cruel....i'm cruel....hahahaha...

so schools done for me....it's just that i can't get through to poly....which is sad...to those who got in......congratulation!!!!!

work hard,strive for a better future alright!!!

anyway, i am currently on my bed....with this lappy....and my butt feels so hot right now...

i've got no cash right now....need to find job....and i did a lot of times......no one wants me....boo hoo

so i was playing with "getting a job" just now....and it's skin food....a cosmetic product....yeah yeah....i'm not really good with cosmetic....but what the heck right....i'm just playing....so i send a resume to them.....and seriously i was joking on getting that job actually....haha!!! Beauty Consultant...i mean really......i can't even paint my own freaking damn face!!!!

but people always says beauty comes from within....heh...good one girl...well.....i get that from a lot of people....especially my family....hahahahahahahahaha!!!!!

*sigh*

well....got to go...it's 2:28 am in the morning....omgosh!!! hah...! what the heck who cares.....'

tata everyone!!!

Ever gotten bitch slap before?

2011-01-31T07:40:00.001-08:00

no........but if they try i swear they'll get them back from me.....

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sabby!!! Hows your holiday?

2011-01-31T07:39:00.003-08:00

hello wati!!! my holiday....??? ermmmm....one word...TERRIBLE....!!! hahahaha

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sab, where you go man?

2011-01-31T07:39:00.001-08:00

hahaha...me??? at home babysitting my nephew....couldn't hock the freaking laptop anyway....

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there's 2 worlds i cannot take in with..................

2010-12-14T18:54:00.000-08:00

it was a sad that my sister just close down the video that i'm watching :(

it's a shame to this people that they have no lives.seriously, i was watching the humiliating show on earth and she just close down :( and now i'm going to cry.for now on,i am going to be more sensitive then ever...it's because i lost my pride to this people.

they made me stupid and weak and slow and they wouldn't let me be strong.the world doesn't change for me.i'm always the one who has to be wrong all the time and the one who gets beaten.oh GOD! what have i become.nothing has seriously change in these few years of my life.

will i get a better future?

will i get a better husband?

for all i know is that,i'm always the one who gets emotionally hurt.hmmm......it's raining. Christmas and 2011 is around the corner.i'm going to be 19 soon.and by the next year i'm going to be 20.time really doesn't change for me.

will i get better?

hais.......this is just the beginning for me...........................................

Holla girl!!! Do you think its a must for a chick to have a little black dress?

2010-12-07T05:14:00.001-08:00

ehhhh....ermmmm....no??? maybe.....wait....i think yes...coz i do have one though....hahahaha

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formspring.me

2010-12-07T04:45:00.001-08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/eegiler

2010-12-02T22:14:00.000-08:00

ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

never in my entire life.i have been ditch or what so freaking ever....i hate it!!!!

and i hate my freaking ite life!!!! it's so boring.....i'm boring!!!!!!! never mind forget it......i just hate the way my life goes right now.it's just not right you know....

wait.....you don't even know a single thing....whatever it is...i'm not gonna talk to other guys anymore.not now and will never ever talk to guys....hais......

i'm not desperate,really....but....hais....ok i'm desperate......eeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkk~~~~!!!! omgosh!!!!! nooooooo!!!!! don't be desperate!!!! must love songs and yourself!!!!!! noooooo!!!!!

think a7x,think zacky vengeance.....think zacky vengeace...hehehehe! i lioke him you know.ever since wati and anie showed me him....the him....i mean like wow! plus i love love love their songs!!!! it's sooooooooo wah!!!!! hahahaha....

and let me tell you since when i'm addicted to them? since they showed me zacky.he's cute,and he's my ideal....oh ya! guy like zacky and with an humorous attitude.wah!!!! i'm really into imaginations right now.hehe*blushing*

i'm smiling wide right now because i'm thinking of zacky....hua hua hua!!! plus i did make tumblr.which is super cool.i lioke their photography and etc....yes yes,you should join tau...join join join!!!! it's fun and cool! me lioke.....hahahaha.....

ok bye!!!! muacks muacks!!!!

formspring.me

2010-12-02T06:12:00.003-08:00

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Who was the best teacher you've ever had?

2010-12-02T06:12:00.001-08:00

MDM LIM my sec 4 teacher.....miss miss her so much!!!!!!

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If you could go on a road trip with any person, dead or alive, who would it be and where would you go?

2010-12-02T06:11:00.003-08:00

eh...........zacky vengeance maybe....hua hua hua....in my dreams.......oh oh.....i always wanna go greece........hahahaha

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If you had your own talk show, who would your first three guests be?

2010-12-02T06:11:00.001-08:00

a7x,mcr and bon jovi

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If you could go back in time 10 years and tell your younger self something, what would it be?

2010-12-02T06:10:00.001-08:00

well,i would as myself to practice drawing?....i don't know......

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What message would you want to put in a fortune cookie?

2010-12-02T06:09:00.001-08:00

there's a will,there's a way.....oh oh oh...........someday it will be alright.......yah!

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hiies ii w0nder iif y0ur c0urse iish beri tiiriing?

2010-12-02T06:08:00.001-08:00

errrrr.........yes...yes it does......it's super tiring......hahaha...why?

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What is your favorite sport?

2010-10-26T08:35:00.001-07:00

errrr.....floor ball? because i love hitting people with the floor ball stick.......seriously.......

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the moment of truth........

2010-10-17T18:00:00.000-07:00

it's 6:00 pm sharp and i'm at home.thinking what to do.....all my life,i've always wanted to be happy while being single and enjoy what i have....and i did.

so..........i hope you have move on like i did......cherios!

AT CHALET!!!!!

2010-10-10T23:30:00.000-07:00

before turning in.....i want post my blog......hehe ;)

i'm actually at home team chalet at pasir ris.......so syiok man!!!! like really.....it's nenek's birthday.....and happy 75 birthday to my beloved nenek......hope you can live longer......your good grand-daughter will always love you.....hehe;D macam ader makne ajer....hehehehehe............

so now.......my siblings plus sutra a.k.a sadi are now playing monopoly.....oh wait! it's mini monopoly.....hehe......it's super cute.....really......hhahahaha! tomorrow my class will start at 8 and i'm still here.....yeah yeah i know......that i should go home.......like really..........but what can i do.........but i'm really loving it......

and plus i brought along my favourite show....OH! MY LADY.....haha...super syiok sia!

yesterday,kakyani,kaksu and me went to town for shopping!!! like for so long i never went to town to shop.and really,i need money to buy so many stuff already.....all i need is to find job and keep some money to spend!!! i need more money to spend more stuffs.......and yesterday i bought ifah hello kitty ring and kaksu bought for me an overall that looks like a romper and for kaksu she bought dress for herself......and kakyani,she bought shoes and slipper for herself.and the cool flip floops so freaking cool....you can choose different colour for the sole and the thingy thing......hahahaha!!! gua nak buy man......like really!!!!!! hahahahaha! ok la...go to go now.....cherios!!!!!

Friends do come and go like relationship does.........

2010-09-30T23:00:00.000-07:00

no one will know how i feel,how i remember it,how i'm going to do.all they wanted is to let me do all those dirty work and left me alone.while they had fun time with others...seriously talking here.i don't trust anybody.and i don't trust myself either.and i will never forget to those who screw me,left me and think that i'm just a person with no feelings and just stepping on my head on purpose.well,you know what KARMA....yes,i know you know the word and the meaning right?.........and don't pretend you don't know.

all i know is that life has many obsticles.whether you did it well or not,you still has to go through it.for my case.people around me just bring it more and more.and yes i care about people first then i do myslef....but hey! limits.remember???.............hais........................you know what.....i think i'm going to see how far i can see them go.and how worse can they be.and plus,i had so many friends that i can be with.and to the readers who read this...........don't worry it's not you.......it's just someone that you people don't really know.and can't know.and it's not him.................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-09-29T06:46:00.000-07:00

i don't where to begin but...i think i just lost someone.just felt like it.it's hard to say and i knew everyone would probably told that i was at fault....hais....no worries ee,you are strong and your family will always be there for you.............sometimes i wonder if that person has made the right decision.i wonder if that person could live life as per normal.as i.......do........

yes i don't care much about myself.and i always put people in front of me then i do myself.i am weak,but i do know what's best for me and people's future.i am no longer a whimpy girl,i am now a sister,a student and a daughter of a parents who loves me and care for me............as much as i do....................................................

"a day without is like a year without rain"

2010-09-26T00:19:00.000-07:00

from a down low girl to a high tide lady.

suddenly i had this saying inside my mind.i'm trying to find it's meaning though even though it's not english and it's not in the dictionary or what so ever...

but it is cool.

and my title is for no one actually i just like the word.i know i know.....it's from a song title but what the heck! i like it and no one can't do anything about it yo.! OMG !!! i can't sleep!!! what am i suppose to do......

well, i do have pictures to be put.but,it's weird...hais....i think i'll just put it in here just in case...maybe i put up in the facebook :D

my neck hurts.and yes i had like a lot of stories that i need to tell.but i will find time to tell you ok?!?! plus now a days i kept on complaining.yeah! me without complaining is like the dessert/desert without rain.seriously i need to complain sometimes.so do other people! but really.my neck hurts but i just kept it quiet.you know me right.

actually i had nothing to say.it's just that my life goes on as per normal,quite bored and usual.nothing much,but hey! that's what life is all about.right?!?! haha :D cherios!

Hi! do u have www.asк.fm account? it looks like a new sensation after formspring. everybody talking about it. :)

2010-09-25T09:56:00.001-07:00

really??? wow!

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2010-09-02T21:20:00.000-07:00

i realize that even though i hurt yan a lot.i still love him,but...at times,being in relationship makes me feel more sadder then i thought it would be.and my decision..? i don't know,you choose.i can't.because no matter what i choose i won't be happy...i can't make good decision.and i won't.if i let go of him,i won't be happy.and if i do,i won't be happy either.

YA ALLAH...

tunjuk la jalan yang benar untuk diriku.

2010-08-21T08:01:00.000-07:00

i found out that my blog can only viewed at only window explorer...sooo yeah...
and...he has deleted he's facebook...like lucky for me.more freedom less worried.but....see.i'm fine.very fine.plus the song i'm listening to....suits guys who likes to cling on he's girlfriend for many years...really,i hate people clinging to me.i would prefer easy relationships...not clinging type...first thing it's super remas!!! for me,second,i need space ok.! third,i just hate.so buzz off a little.
and yes i would prefer that i will text you everynight and everyday.not you..i make the decision not you.and the most very hating part of relationships is....the word.CONTROL....urgh!! control freak is the best word for your partner.never ever find that type of person.NEVER!
and now my heart has cool down a little.phew! lucky for me though...anyway...goodnight and goodday!

2010-08-15T00:03:00.000-07:00

one more night of boredom.how boring is it?

kaksu is now watching PRIVILEGE and i'm.............sitting here looking at the lappy...urgh!!!! i need entertainment.i need life and fortune.of course...

hmmmmm...

so....i'm nothing without entertainment,and i might irritate people.sooo....hold on it ya...hua hua hua!!!....ok ok...i know what to do....i'm going to type a long post for my dear boyfy...haha...great idea huh!?!?!

to: my dear boyfriend,

if i could.i would buy you a world's greatest boyfriend t-shirt,cups,pencil holder or whatever.but...i brought you a deck for your birthday.so there's no point for buying you that give.and it's our 8th monthsary already.and sadly i can't go out :(

but no matter what.i will try and make tomorrow a happy day for you through sms'ing ok.? hehe ;p plus even though you don't get to hug me or kiss because it's fasting month and all.and you wanted me to write you a long message and such.but this posts is sincerely from the bottom from my heart...i love you SO MUCH! and i will never let you go...a never never ever thingy okeis :) hehe so done!!! a one sentence post for you!!!.........

2010-08-06T22:31:00.000-07:00

hah!! weird right i know...i'm currently watching this in youtube...yes x-men:evolution

miss watching that show...miss wathing GAMBIT the most hottest x-men dude i have ever seen.and now he's my favourite....haha....

anyways,just 7 hours ago.i went to ion orchard with kellis and danielle.well,kellis thought of buying a supermen bra...haha...it looks cute though...but i didn't bought it.i bought a short pants for east coast.and next shopping spree.i'm going buy myself a maxi dress...jeng jeng jeng...although it does not look good on me but,who cares right...i mean clothes...i don't care wearing bikini to east coast tomorrow but....it's abit too revealing towards my parents...i know we can wear all those types but,limits...it's the key to your life.get it?! the most weirdest thing is.i was walking to bedok interchange heading towards this fashion...and boooooffffff!!!! i saw mummy and baby rai...yes...at that time.i know i couldn't buy my maxi dress...but it's ok.i can always wear my cotton-on dress...hehe..it looks pretty.hehe.....

oh well...got to watch my x-men now....chaos!!!!

2010-08-03T23:56:00.000-07:00

W.E.I.R.D

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

a total weird day i had today.it's so weird that i couldn't forget it,how ironic can it be...? let me tell ya....VERY...it's unforgettable man.i wonder how will it turn out tomorrow? curious now.sheesh....and and to wati.if you're reading this....but i soooooo love your gloves....hehe ;)

so coolio! but i'm pretty sure i won't get to buy those stuffs...it's so unglamorous you know,and yes i admire jasmine's hair alot today.hah! damn i should ask kellis to teach me how to cute braids.hees~

but all this cools stuff doesn't feel weird....hah!

but after school...fooooh! my attitude change like one weird girl.and i made my dearest scared by my reactions.hais.....sorry banyak banyak.

and luckily ehemmm....was there and yes.....ehemmm was cute....but don't worry....my boyfriend is much more cuter than him.oooh! how could i live my life like this.such a heaven and blissful life i've had....teehees~~

hmmmm....ok lah got to go....it's such a tiring day i had today.maybe i got too stressed that i didn't realize i acted weirdly towards him and the rest...hmmmmm again,.......ok bye.....

2010-07-30T04:28:00.000-07:00

i am now worshiping my own deaths of my life.in a manner that doesn't make others feel abit uneasy.it's amusing why other's are married and had a nice happy family life.and not only that,i discover that children leads to happy life.well,i'm not really saying that i want children right now.i just want them later and lead to a normal,happy life like other's.it is funny,although you see people like this you do will,turn out to be the same.but for my case,i won't.because i won't be the girl who followed people un-happening lives.yes...i do have few of my own.is that i everytime i got spare key.spare lives,no spare boyfriends,friends or what so ever reasons.

it's very fast on how i see to it,as i am going to be 18 in a couple months time.i won't be surprise that i'm 18.i'm just that surprise that i'm going to be legal.although,i won't get to do things i wanted so so badly.people might think i'm a wild child.yes,i can be pretty wild sometimes,or to you it can be everytimes.but it's the way i am,it's how i live my life.i wanted to feel like how good or bad it can be.if you know what i'm referring to of course.it's so laughable that you might just cry while reading this post tonight.yes it's funny.but laughing can make your tears running away.as i do please myself all the time.and i still like it.that's how i role.
unlike any other reason.i just can't see to stop myslef,or restrain myself in this post.i just feel like posting about how ridiculous and fascinating lives would be.just imagine you are on the beach.breathing the fresh air.the sound of the waves splashing by on the water breaker or what so ever.just imagine you are on a boat.thinking how life would if you just jump........hmmmmmmmmmmm.....maybe i'm over elaborating....i should stop here because it's 4:28 in the morning.....tata for now.

Which is more important? looks or brains?

2010-07-29T07:12:00.001-07:00

none..... :D heart is the key to love.....

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2010-07-20T10:42:00.000-07:00

i'm having the confusion of my life....it's super sucks....
it's like a blackhole passing by you.or making a super big hole in the heart.
seriously...i mean seriously....why life keep pushing it the wrong way....
and why am i feel like this...hais...it's better to just sketch how i feel...that will be better....hmmmmmmm.....don't bother me,i'm super fucking busy!!!!!

get outta here losers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-07-12T12:56:00.000-07:00

impossible......is it impossible.?
i don't know you tell me.there's a big difference of treating people well and not treating people well.i guess that people are just being totally over me.and even though i'm dumb,slow and very weak.that doesn't mean that you can concur everything.why am i being like this is because,i don't want to be treated like i'm no good or whatever shit that peole might think i am.
sometimes,i think that my life is so miserable because of things going this way.maybe just maybe things was suppose to be this way.why am i doing things i don't like.why am i the only one who has to be treated this way.now i realise that i'm actually being use.people don't think that i'm loyal,people don't think that i am good,people don't trust me.people keep whining on me this days.well maybe i'm not in the mood or you people don't really ask or saying it nicely.from what i see now.i think in the near future.i won't be this bright light girl anymore.i can never be happy,i can never find true happiness.things i want to see it can never happen again.because all i see is nothing....

what is the best moment u had with your bf?

2010-07-09T14:25:00.001-07:00

when we were alone talking and laughing with each other :D

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who is your best friend?

2010-07-09T00:16:00.001-07:00

nur amira bt ismail....and and siti norain nabila bte muhammad....and and my fyp group:)

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What was the happiest moment in your life?

2010-07-09T00:14:00.001-07:00

......don't know....

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What do you think is your most attractive feature?

2010-07-09T00:13:00.003-07:00

i don't really have an attractive feature....

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What did you dream about last night?

2010-07-09T00:13:00.001-07:00

i dreamed that i'm a billionair... :D

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Have you broken any bones? If so, how?

2010-07-09T00:11:00.001-07:00

yes,my 2nd toe...i was playing or whatever...and after then i went to sleep,the next thing i woke up my 2nd toe overlap my big toe....

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What was the happiest moment in your life?

2010-07-09T00:10:00.001-07:00

being born in this world....

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are you more of a sneakers person or heels?

2010-07-08T23:24:00.001-07:00

sneakers........my friend says slipper...

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2010-07-07T22:45:00.000-07:00

busy busy busy dizzy...ok...

this few days,my life is g.o.n.e
my eyes were like on the computer for 24/7 and i really need specticles.i got a feeling that my degree has gotten higher.
and yes,my life is getting busier than ever because of fyp.the craziest thing ever.and the most hardest thing ever.and you really really put your heart on it,if not then bye bye grades :(
sheesh...!! i don't want grades to fall like the tallest water fall.it's so scary and the painful things i could see...haha!! merepek man aku.hais...alot of things i need to think about.school,my life,my family,work and many many more man.so tiring...i need a rest but i can't because my schedule is so freaking tight man...and later i need to sketch on my sketch books.urgh!!!...so the penat ceii.

anyway,
right now i'm so addicted to 2pm's nichkun.so handsome but whatever it is i still prefer......
>>>> KIM JUNSU.
yes the lovely junsu.i like him...so cute hehe;p

ok lah gtg...i want to watch nu abo bye fx dance...hehehe;P

2010-07-04T19:46:00.000-07:00

a wonderful light that came through my mind.
and grew stronger that i should think that happy life leads to money...so from now on.i'm going to live happily and lively.good luck to myself man...

whatever....i just came back from family day...like how many hours ago...and it's so hot,and humid.like crazy,i feel like a marinated chicken bbq.haha! but it was fun though.alot and lots of babies that i can play around with.hehe ;) and nice foods to eat.
and now i got a slight headache from sitting inside the car too long and i almost vomitted out man.foooh!!!!......and yes,it's not bad wearing hot pants under the hot sun.haha!!!

right now i'm in the room with my younger half.talking to her boyfy.and i really hate holland for throwing away my brazil.and why is brazil playing like one big dumb?!?!?! poor brazil guess you players need to wait another 4 years???...but for now...i will support germany...hehehe! goooooo!!!! germany!!!!!!

2010-07-03T15:44:00.000-07:00

news flash to begin with...

i saw a cat sleeping on top of a car....yes!!!! on top of a car....
so at that time my imagination runs...i imagine that the owner of the car suddenly drive it.and the cat got rolling on top of the car...haha!!! lame i know...kater animation...lame ideas are always in my mind.and i like it...

i'm actually sketching cartoons.timothy turner from fairly odd parents.cute boy but weird wishes.but i still like him no matter what.maybe i should call my nephew timmy turner.because it suits him well.jangan marah kakak ye.your son is a mixture of GOO JUN PYO from boys over flower and TIMMY TURNER from fairly odd parents.both cute.oh ya! another news flash...while i was teaching my nephew on the computer,he farted on me.like really loud! for a small boy macam dier,kentut dier kalah aku.and i mean really kalah aku...

i'm still thinking of what to buy now....before i forgot....should i or should i not???

2010-07-02T15:44:00.000-07:00

ahhhh....!!! what a nice wet day we have today.raining...confirm orchard will flood again.haha!
anyways,i'm at home alone again.as the usual,i'll be cleaning,playing games and eat.well,i'm enjoying myself now.because this monday.school starts...and it will be hectic! so for now.enjoy.hehe...
have you wonder what love really really mean to you???...why do you need it? what so good about love...i mean,it does feel good.but...why? all i know that it doesn't go well with me.i'm a nasty little girl with very very small interest in myself.and sometimes i don't even know why i'm here.do i even need to be here? do i,am i that important? i wonder who am i important to?...some serial question huh?!?! but sometimes we do have question all the time...i mean most of the time...not all the time.but mostly on life.of course life is full of colours...blue red green...even black!
the purpose of me saying this is that.i'm not the typical ordinary girl.i have a very huge limit of myself,and sometimes i intend to do things people hates.well,too bad.i'm not the person i am before.happy,loud and cheerful.i'm now...the other way round.how very disappointing is that....let me tell you...very..!!! but sometimes i'm appriciating a bit.just a tiny bit.and yes i want to make changes around me.i want to be the way i am before.loud,happy and cheerful.which is better.i've got alot of loyal friends,which i am very very happy to be with.i'm now friends again with the girl i'm miss the most than the rest of them...and yes.i'm changing the current me...so i hope to post another happy moments about again soon...hehe....good luck on that!!!!!

enjoi!

NCIS ROCKS!!!! SERIOUSLY!!!

2010-06-30T19:59:00.000-07:00

hello again.second time posting my infamous blog.yerp.well,i'm now waiting my NCIS season 6 episode 06 to let it load.so that i won't have to wait it buffering all the time,because i hate it when i'm watching it and half way it stop.so it's irritating.any what,my left index finger is numb due to ketam feast i had last monday.and i can see the colour,blueish black.eeeeeeeeeeekkkkkk!!!

you know what,kaksu bought a story book from borders.it's the author of "surrender" AMANDA QUICK.nice stories man.but some of her books,i've read it.like surrender and....ugh!!!! i forgot.damn.my memory card in my head is going to be explode.too much to think....so yesterday i got scolded by 3 annoying people.my parents and kaksu.yes,i think they're annoying.kaksu if you're reading this............ermmmm............i have to say that my english sucks but at least i can read and understand it on my own thank you.....and yes.i hate the bad side of you.ever since that FUCKER!!!! came in to your life last year.it make me realise that now,you're a sickening girl from HELL....you know why.you're not introvert, like before..you're not the sister i used to know eversince he crushed your life.you're the bitch that says "look at me,look at me.i'm that bitchy girl who thinks about myself and ruin others"....honestly.you suck.! i hate the way you treat me and ifah.yeah! it's true you think about yourself all the time.and i remember that i told you not to believe that idiot so much,but...you didn't.and you told me that he hated us for hating him and assuming him.well,if i don't assume...who will? and if you don't open your eyes wide enough,you will be in much more bad situation then you are right now.i mean...he's a freaking loser! seriously if i were to see him outside walking happily.i'll just take whatever that's nearby and slash his fucking throat.....slaughter him like people slaughter the cows...and i'm not thinking about myself nor the money...i'm not thinking about you either.... but nobody cares for you like how ifah and i do.so next time when you're falling in love with someone else who CLAIMED that he's parents live in egypt.cross him out!!!!!!!!!

so that's for kaksu...i hope that you enjoy reading this post....thank you!!!!!

2010-06-30T18:27:00.000-07:00

yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i found my NCIS seasons!!! and episodes.....if you're wondering what the show is all about.go and see it yourself.to those who has starhub cable or singtel mio...it always airs it at FOX channel.so go and watch it! it's damn addictive.haha! and you will love GIBBS or DINOZZO or maybe MCGEE.haha....but now...i like this 2 character in the show.GIBBS and MCGEE....ooooh!!!! so cool.i like cool character.such a cool people....and right now i'm watching season 6.fooooooh!!!!! so fast.and left with season 7.....hmmmmmm.....

ok lah....gonna watch it now......see ya!

2010-06-29T23:54:00.000-07:00

watching family guy now...damn that peter dude is fucking irritating.and i so so so love stewie.so cute but very mature voice.haha.well,mama,ayah and kaksu are now in johor.hehe.i kinda ask them i wanted a marinated chicken and duck.mmmm.....yum yum.hahaha....
anyways,met my 2 favourite person today....hehe! thanks to mama i get to see them and talk to them today.i'm so happy.anyway,there's 2 things i love right now,watching NCIS and MCGEE.gosh he's cute...but but...somehow..i always missed my shows.damn i need to see the timing of the show.ee go so the timing of the show.!!!!..........................ok done.hahahaha...remember to watch it at the timing.and people it's a must watch show..............

ok got to go...since i got nothing to say right now.speechless in many kind of way....

2010-06-27T14:30:00.000-07:00

another day another life...
as usuall.a day would always be the same.
but not today,i'll be going to eat popeye at tampines.hah! bye bye craving hello chicken.

anyways...yesterday,the family was suppose to go to johor.but canceled.because the siblings woke up late.and it was rainig in the morning too.so it was kinda nice to sleep.like right now.soooo....my dad thought of buying crabs and cooked them.and we did.and it's soooo sedap,foooh! never get tired of mama's black pepper chilli crab.syiok to the core ceii! but there's still some left.raser nak makan tapi perut nak safe for ayam larh.so maybe at night i'll eat....yesterday i didn't get to eat for the 2nd round sooo yeah! power man.hah!

hmmmmmmmmmmm...................so bored,gonna watch south park now.......

2010-06-26T15:45:00.000-07:00

a jerseylicious pump up weekend for me.
you girls should jerseylicious it's damn eye catching.hah! it's because i like cat fights between olivia and traxy.hah!

i was at home for 2 days that got me thinking,i've made alot of promises to everybody.but then i broke them.don't you think it's frustrating.whenever i want to make up for things.other things were just pop out of no where.my secondary school ask me to hang out with them today...but i didn't even talk to them...and i made promises to them.i missed them too...and my boyfriend.hmmppfff!!!...it is sooooo easy to come and find me you know.and sometimes i don't have to ask you right...??? i mean you could find me in school.outside of school....i can't,i got fyp and you got fyp too...soooooo....shoudln't you be going to school doing 3D work.? instead of staying at home??? waiting for me to meet you?...and seriously,i got alot meet ups lately and i cancel them.you want to know why...my school works,my family and my school friends.and i'm not thinking about myself.i'm actually thinking about others recently.well,not recently more like it's the way i am.but really,for myself.i don't know what i want,who i want to see.but i know what i have to do.i just have to make another meet up with them already.i missed them soooo much.and it's a must that i have to make for you people.just to make you guys happy...ok....soooooo,wait for me...just wait.....

2010-06-18T23:30:00.000-07:00

GLEE!!!!!!!

seriously i want to watch it,but all the damn video's won't let me.it just pisses me off.
currently at home,hogging the laptop.maybe later i'll eat whatever is in the kitchen.wait...maggie! i'll eat maggie with telur.slurp! sedop oi! haha.suddenly i feel like i want to do everything at home.i feel like curling my hair,i feel like sleeping(well,it's like my first priority in this house you know) i feel like eating,i feel like cooking and to my surprise i feel like reading books.lots of things i can do at home.hais...miss my lovely house alot.haha!
like wise,schools are so hectic(not heptic) too much that are still undone.and not only that,it's been raining heavily this few days,and orchard is now under going flood problems.poor orchard.poor shooping centres,poor ZARA that appear in the youtube video.haha!
family,been going up everyday.ever since rai was born.our family will always smile,even though we are having problems.and i know that we are strong.and all of naughtiness,i want vanish right now.i don't want to make my mum hate me.like my dad told me,during hari raya,kiter mintak maaf dengan mak,cium tangan and sujut kaki.mak akan diampun kan.and not only that,of course you make her cry too.speaking of that,ever since i was small,i never cried whenever i say sorry to my parents.wierd.am i that cold blooded? i hope not.but i could i feel i am now-a-days.wow!

ok so,aku nak carik makan.till then

enjois!

(p.s:* It hurts when I look at you, I fall short of breath, now hold my hand
Why, when that person does not love you?
WHY DONT YOU GET IT?
Risking my everything, I cast this spell, WE CAN BE SO PERFECT
Even if the world becomes my enemy It cant be
It cant be anyone but you )..........

2010-06-05T17:42:00.000-07:00

feeling tired and sleepy,you want to know why...
because i was so engrossed by korean drama,You're Beautiful.hehe.well,i kinda stay up all night for it.because i feel bored and i feel like watching something nice,cool,romantic and exciting at the same time.
when i watched that show,there's this old song,well not really that old though...it's Breathless by Shane Ward.haha,nice song.and the beat of the song is so soft,and very clam.so nice for my type of environment.gee~~ so sleepy,but i think i want to watch that drama.i'm so addicted and curious about it.and i could dream i could be like them,in malay they called brangan taik ayam! hahahahaha.....(*slapping my own face to be wide awake.) so you all will be wondering where i always type my blog right?...well,ever since i got this freaking cool hp probook.i kept on going to facebook and etc...and i'm currently in my brothers bedroom.he told mummy and daddy,that he wants to borrow the car to go johor.lolx.me too wants to enjoy life like that.and not only that,right beside me is he's laptop,macbook.cool or what.haha,whatever lah.not showing off but,i myself feel so jealous about my brother.i want to be like him,but i don't know where to start that's all.lame right,i know.ok lah,got to go...bye!!!

till then,

enjois!

2010-06-02T16:47:00.000-07:00

home alone part 1...

as you can see i'm alone in this whole green house of mine(due to the fact that my living room is green).and this entire house is all mine! yes,it will be for awhile because mother went out with baby rai to pay something.although i got nothing to do but to sit and wait till mother or whoever will be coming home.for the mean time,just to kill my time waiting i'm just gonna blog about it.
this few days of mine was quite,ermmm...i should say different than usual.of coz i had alot of fun playing waters at wild wild wet and ate a japanese lunch at sakae sushi.which i won't be going there again till the next 2 years of my life.you really need to empty your stomach when you reach there.seriously...

anyway,let's just forget about it.no ones wants to know it anyway.
i got a thinking that when i live,i live for something.and when i die,i die with lossless and forgetful memory about my life.humans number 1 fear is to die.well,to me.we all have to move on and pass on.of coz each road has an end to it.you went alot of obsticle and you die finishing it.just like life,when you say life is hard.it's not you see.life isn't that hard,it's just that you were the one making harder.you have to understands it,and you know happy endings are for fairytale endings.people say in reality,life isn't like the fairytale.well,if you make it like the fairytale,you'll get the fairytale endings.for me,i would prefer the way as it is now.of coz without any pimples on my face and dirty stuffs on my face.well,i should get going for now.remember that life is full of 256 colours with RGB and CMYK...till then

enjois!

2010-05-27T01:27:00.000-07:00

another episode about my busy everyday life...
you know....i was dumb to download MAYA 2011...i mean i don't even know freaky function that well...so i'm going to un-install it...and install MAYA 2010 trial...sheesh~~ silly silly me...i was not that careful,hah!!! bimbo!
life for me this few days are ok ok.abit of a painful in a butt.but i think i can manage that.although i think i couldn't,well things change right...
right now my body are like aching everywhere,and i mean everywhere.
and i'm currently lonely,because my siblings are fast asleep like a baby.pffftt...tinggal kan aku.whatever la.so cold in my bedroom,and everyday i have to like survive the cold environment.in the classrooms and at my room.the disadvantage of having an air-con in the bedroom,living room and 2 other rooms.is that they just on it without asking you are hot or not.and the advantage is,whenever you feel hot.you can always on it.hahahahahahaha...get it..ok lame,i know.but what to do,i'm alone right now.but not really alone.
tomorrow,be in school by 9.fooh!!! tiring or what.
have you readers had any feelings on what you will do in the future,or what it's your future like to be exact...hmmmm....i can't.seriously,like i said before,i don't know what will i do in the future.or how is my future like.i didn't actually plan it,because i seriously don't have the mood to do so.like wise,a lazy girl like me would want her mother to do her future for her.get it.? i may not like other girls out there,who wants to married a rich guys.and be their house maids...ooopppps!!! did i say maids,damn it must hurt alot uhs!? hahaha...bitches...shit them.
you know what...i'm just going to do my work.then i will be off to bed...till then

enjois!!!

2010-05-24T22:47:00.000-07:00

monday...monday...monday...
is a nightmare with many blues around you...i hate mondays...they gave me this weird aura or maybe this "un" balance wheather.and sometimes,just sometimes.my girls problem would just pop out.like an hours ago.i was happily think that school today must must be a fun to me.but............but..........i got a terrible strike on my tummy.yes it does hurt alot.and that gave the frustrations and moody.although i did cried for 2 times without people noticing it.hehe.well,sometimes feelings are meant to be kept inside.that's what i'm doing at that point of time.but then some feelings are meant to express it all out.gees~ my english really,really went down the drain man.
one thing i like my blog is that,it's full of stories that people don't read.but i do.i love to read my past life,and as you can see,that my history are like piling like some freak blog person blogs every hour and everyday.but still,blogs are the best.and to my surprise,i had this blog when i was sec2 i guess.till now.and no i'm not showing off,but it's so surprising for me.and i did use the same old thing.coolio.few years ago,i'm like a silly,nerdy girl who doesn't even know what's life all about and what's love got to do with life.and not only that,i'm a illegal girl.who doesn't have any license and can't drink.but now.few more months and i'm going to be legal.time really passes by very fast.although i'm not good in memory,but i will always remember my friends whom i laugh with,cry with and fought with....i mean don't you did that with you pals/peeps/or whatever you call it....as you grew older,things change.your life,your love.and even your careers...when you were young you say you want to be a teacher,but when you are older,you suddenly change your future to become a pilot or whatever you wanted to be.hmmm....there's no purpose for me to post this,because i got nothing to do now.a few minutes more,i'll be busy finding more sounds for my final year.busy busy,dizzy...till then...

enjois!

2010-05-21T12:34:00.000-07:00

time out...time out...time out...time out....TIME OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

silly silly people,when i say i don't want means i don't want.you're sooo damn lucky that i'm a patience girl.if not i will be like other girls throwing you away like some tissue paper like other people did it to other people.and i told you i'm sorry if i didn't tell you earlier.and i want it to be the way we are last the time.but,whenever i want that,YOU were the one who always spoils it,ruin it or whatever.can't you tell i want a nice smooth life like others,without any spoilers.ok let me tell you what,since you want it sooooo much i give you a looonnnnggggg time out ok.??? since you are sooooooo depress...you can have your own life,and talking with other GIRLS like i'm not yours...

you know life is full colours..
for me the colours i'm having now are black and grey.dull,scary and boring.i know...
but,that's what my life goes now.i think if i die,i'll die in vein.and broken wings with a tiny heart that had been cut half.hah...dumb....if you are reading this.think again.and those who are ter-raser.shut it.it's not you..dammit!

2010-05-17T21:58:00.000-07:00

intern intern intern....
can i do it???
i wonder....

(it's been so long that i sat on my desk in school.i looked at it.and can feel the pressure of it.
but the feeling of the pressure makes me want to work more and more.i wonder if i can go on,i wonder if i can really get what i want...i just wonder.what it would be like to have the success that you had for such a long time.?...can it be for long? i wonder.)

a wonderful today,
err....not really wonderful.it just so happens that i misplace my very own burberry wallet.damnation!!!!!! where did i put it???...think SITI SABARIAH THINK!!!! damn.maner siak aku taruk.inside there's my money,some cool coupon and don't for get my NETS!.
ANNOUNCEMENT!!!!
IF ANYONE WERE TO READ THIS(ESPECIALLY MY SIBLINGS) PLEASE INFORM ME AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.AND REWARD WILL BE GIVEN TO YOU...THANK YOU FOR YOUR KINDNESS.

ok,apparently i misplace my wallet at home.and so forget where i put it.but i'm pretty sure it won't fall on the wrong hands.seriously,those who are a money-money person will just took my money away.and leave me starve to death in school and at home.get it.get it...???
ok....so i'm currently typing this post and thinking of what to do at the same time.well,maybe i go watch some clips on youtube.then who knows i would come across the adobe after effects tutorial.hehe;D

ok bye!

enjois!!!!

2010-05-14T19:00:00.000-07:00

tired tired tired...i am indeed tired.i woke up and nothing much.

this sickness is super killing me.its like i can feel something really wrong or is something really bothers me much? this thing is stuck in my head,can't tell ya.because it's between me and brain.but i really hate it much,i just want to say stop making things i don't want to do.NO means NO.geesh!!!i hope my brain understands it,like my heart does.because my heart and my brain are like 2 seperate people.whenever my heart says no,my brain says yes.but...i was listen to my heart not my brain.of cause people think that brain is much better,but...sometimes brain tells you the wrong things.and you ended up in trouble or something that doesn't feel right.
get it??? but it doesn't matter right...different people has different views.true?
good.

anyway,for brunch.i ate french fries with chocolate oreo ice blend with pearls...sedap tau.must try must try...and today's dinner?!?!...hmmm...i think i'm going to make myself a root beer float.yeah! long time never had that drink since 19++??? it's originally made from A&W...damn!!!! i freaking love their waffles with ice-cream on top of it.and now i'm craving for it.FUCK!the last time i had it was 2 years ago.when me and family went to KL.and that place it's like.cool,on your left there's KFC.BORING! and on your right....A&W.damn!!!...or was it the other way round?...never mind about that.
those were the days...

but now,the days were like shits.hmmpff...oh ya! since i bluetooth my pics to this laptop.i might as well upload it right.anyways,old photos...when i was visiting my grandmama and went china town after that...it's not much...so enjois!

2010-05-13T15:30:00.000-07:00

ok,a news flash to begin my post of the day.
news no.1) i'm at home for the last 3 days,due to this fucking sickness of mine.

news no.2) my mum ask me yesterday night to "work" or whatever as an intern a temporary one.if i'm ok with it,i can be a photographer.but seriously i don't know whether i can do it or not.hmmm...this things needs experience and time to learn it.but i could try right..???

news no.3) my life now is totally unlimited already,i'm tired and exhausted from many many things happening around me.really.don't ask why and how,but somehow if there's any problem occurs to me.i'm just going to ignore,because i've already said that i'm tired of it.so yeah...

news no,4) i've kept many many thoughts to myself that no one ever knew,not even my close friends and him.and not even my entire family.but seriously i have emotional issues.now a days i intend to get angry or sad,even thought the atmosphere is not really a bad one or what so ever it is.that is why sometimes alone time is what i really need.hmmm...

ok...
i think that's all,if there's anything you peeps or blog hoppers or whoever you are,happens to past by or read my blog,were to ask or don't care at all,do tag.but no,and i mean no bullshits.if i see one,that person i will find out and i will curse you.if you know what i meant.alright are we clear on that? good.
phoooooooooo~~~~~.....hmmmmm.....
i took 2 days mc,from school.too tired i guess,but i can't help it right.health is important.
and today's meal is lemak ayam chili padi,side dish sambal blachan.lol! side dish sambal blachan.power or what man.and in the afternoon,i went to hisshou japanese cafe.ya,that cafe is right below my block.not really below it.i ate their curry rice,and i almost vomit it out.but i didn't and now i totally forgot to eat my medicine.nevermind later i'll eat,before i went to bed.my head now,starting to spin like roller coaster and ferris wheel.i can't belive it i'm sick for more than 3 days.not the usual me man.hais....i guess i need to check on food or diet maybe.because for me food is important,hehe.it's more like my no.1 priority.hmmmmm...i guess that's that...need to rest for now.
i hope by then i'm fine as the way i am before.

bye!!!

enjois........

2010-05-06T00:30:00.000-07:00

hello people of the world!!! it's in the middle of the night and the rest of my family troups are in the la la land zone.currently having a flu right now.couldn't stand any longer.i guess the sickness is spreading too fast...gees~~~

well,
you want to know something...there's another curious case of siti sabariah bte sanusi,i heard she(not apparently,it's more of a share.hehee ;D) has a new laptop!!!! hp probook.cool right?!?!
got it from daddy like always.i'm like he's naughty daughter,though i don't really know since when i ask for a lappy??? seriously man.wierd right?!?!...well kaksu always wants to buy one.but...it didn't appear till now.and i remember i ask for a cannon digital camera not a laptop.wrong electronis device sia.but this is super worth it.i love it.so i couldn't ask anything again from daddy.so i could ask for a camera from mummy instead.hehe(evil face)...
mummy!!!!! i want a NOKIA N900 and CANNON EOS REBEL XSI!!!!!!!....

hahahahahahahaha!!!!! i sooo want that shit baby!!!! hahahahaha...if i were to have that.my blog will boost with alot of cool pictures sia!!!! hahahaha!!!...ok ok...i shall stop here...need to go makan with kellis,jasmine and some other people later at 12 noon...so see ya,wouldn't wanna be ya!!!!

enjois!!!!

2010-04-28T09:03:00.000-07:00

GOOD MORNING SINGPORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;D

ok,currently in 3D class.and found out that my maya didn't work -.-"
chee bye!!! then before i on the computer.i found out that my plug is open.seriously,i'm sick and tired of people plucking out the fucking plug....!!!!!

anyway,
yesterday i forget to update blog..so i update now....
yesterday did lpd presentation.and everyone eventually liked the video instead of our presentation,haha.nevermind.at least we did our best though.haha...but our teacher weel/will...can't tell which is he's real name.loved it alot sia!!!!! weeeeeee!!!!!
so went to kfc with boyfriend,til 8 plus.then went home...haha...and then saw ifah's new cool fucking phone...idiot sia...!!!! haha...nevermind next will be mine.hehehehehee;D

ok soooooooo....mr.neo is currently not in class,wonder where he go??? hmmm....haiyo...
nevermind forget about it.hehees...

before i go...

i miss my secondary peeps man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha
PIXAR!!!!!!! i can't wait to go see them at science centre!!!! hehehe

2010-04-17T18:30:00.000-07:00

truthfully speaking,

i love you in the past,i love you in the future and i love you always.can you see it??? i love you....
but...i know you won't except me for what i did.i'm feeling more guilty than ever...is it good enough for you???

2010-04-16T22:15:00.000-07:00

words and words and words...here is what my heart has to say.....
>why does my heart hurt so much...??? i'm trying my best not to cry and feel sad all the time.
>am i strong enough...??? i think i don't.my weakness is my emotion.
>i gave you all my love....would you feel it???
>baby i deserve more then empty words and promises....i believe everything you said and i give you the best i had...best wasn't good enough...hais...forget...it's from the song take a bow from leona lewis...hear it,really...

well,to tell you the truth.having a life like me,isn't really good.people might say i'm rich,but i'm not.i'm just a normal average girl.is just that my siblings are work peoples.they had jobs and they have a big goal in their lives.for me,my goal is...nothing.i didn't know what to do in life,even though there's so many things you can do in life.i'm not me and i got no more life in me.i'm half dead and no one will know why.even though they knew.i must say that in me i will be alone.yes...i'm a loner.a total half dead loner that no one knew.
seriously,will i find a happy ending? am i suffer too much??? i wonder...

school...i'm tired to talk about it.my 3D quite ok i guess.with a little bit help from kellis and jasmine though.2D i don't know.first lesson was today.so i guess not much happen...this few days weeks entirely not really a good one.you should know why.but i will be strong no matter what...pray i will always look up high to the sky and smile but not cry,if i fail.then i fail....hmmm...

2010-04-13T21:35:00.000-07:00

my words has become blunt.nothing that i can do to make you smile.
faithful is the key that i can take.why would my heart feel such a pain? i wonder what makes me feel good after all good stuff are gone like air that breeze through my hair.
i wonder what's the difference between love and "intellactual inquiry" or "romance liasion"???
can somebody please explain to me.as i am very confuse in all that.now that i realise that when a person has s crush,it change to like,and when it's like,it change to love,and when it's love,it will slowly change to hate.and it all come back where it started.why is it so hard to just love.but not hate? why can't it lasts...
i'm truely hurt and disappointed...really...somehow,it's hard to change...why???
can i move on...? the answer...no...
i'm stuck and when back to A.
and now my life is on the edge of a cliff,ready to jump down and die.hopefully and wish that things could all be back to normal,like the way it should be.

2010-03-30T23:39:00.000-07:00

-HOW TO TRAIN A DRAGON-

power i like..no...i love it alotssss....especially the black dragon.damn i forget the name of the dragon.but whatever is...the dragon is super cute.hehe.feel like hugging it.and i love love the animation...especially the skies and clouds.so the nice nice.i wonder how they make it???
haha...anyways,i went to watch it with favourite person in the whole wide world.love love him alot you know.hehe;D
we went to cathay at orchard...??? to penin...to somerset and then we end up at orchard shaw house...turns out we that the voucher i had,need not use money.wow!!! so we bought combo 1 regular popcorn and drinks.hehe.but worth it larh watching especially with your love once.hehe.and i had fun watching it.and to people who happens to watch movie the next day,i advice you to bring a one thick jacket.coz you guys may be ice mans...you know! haha.ok ok stop.but seriously i had fun today,even though it's raining and all.hehe...and he'd almost fell today.pity him...nasib i hold on to him.hehe;) but i wish we could fall hugging each other.dah macam pat dalam korea movie.oh! how romantic will it be...i sooooo loving it.hehehe......

hmmm...i'm currently watching resident evil:extinction and updating blog at the same while listening to shinee-jojo...never get tired of choi minho and taemin...hehe...love them 2 guys...hehehehehehehehehehehehehe.....hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha....hihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihih.....hhohohohohohohohohohohohoho
hohohohohohohol.......ok bye!

2010-03-26T00:00:00.000-07:00

i'm currently watching AUSTRALIA right now,such a good show.love HUGH JACKMAN,a one hot dude.love he's abs and biceps.hehe;D and he's handsome.hehe.i think he could replace KEANU REEVES.haha.hmm...today was abit wierd though..for the very first time i woke up around 12++
when i usually awake by 9 or 10++.haha.but i was still sleepy and tired.and i had a nightmare a serious nightmare,it was fuckin' scary until i felt that it was real or something.seriously i was really really scared in my dream,and i almost faint in my own dream.whosh!!!... let it go,let it go.think funny story.funny story...ok...i'm fine now.as i was saying,today i had a wierd day.and i don't know why.but i'm sure that i wasn't complaining about cleaning the whole house though.hmm...nevermind i'm used to that actually...

and to my dearest,
kaksu just paid my bill.so...i will message,but not everytime because people said less message more blanja.pelik,tapi takper.some day sometime i will call.if that's really really ok with you.please...!!! and seriously larh.i really really miss this person.and everywhere i go,i see alot of skaters that pop out of no where.and that makes me miss him more.damn i shouldn't have gone out just now.sheesh..!!! but wait...hmmm...nevermind.argh!!! i went to see him already larh...!!! my daddy is going to give me he's bonus tau.maybe we could go out and makan and go shopping.i got alot of shopping lists you know.

whatever it is,i will message you soon...so please reply my messages pretty please!!!

bye!

enjoi!

2010-03-23T20:12:00.000-07:00

i'm sick.very the suay.
wake up early morning to go to jasmine's crib.but it was rain and i end quite late.reach there then suddenly i kept on sneezing.actually i started sneezing when i was about to walk to jasmine's crib.haiyo...now slowly i'm having fever.after eating porridge and stuff.and my nose kept on being stuffy.eeeekkk!!! tak boleh tahan.need air to breath in not through my mouth but through my nose.
and i hope i could see dear soon,i'm missing him too much already.ever since my line kena potong,my bored-ness became like one don't know what larh.like kena tahan in mental hospital.eekkk!!! tak nak ako.so i try to find something that i can entertain myself...but...nothing really works for me.even though i try to play lappy,many many times.it still doesn't work..hah!! give me tips to have my own hobby.last time i used to have one.that happens to be reading.haha.kelaka maut eh reading.but it's true.i'm a bookworm.but not really a bookworm.sometime,i had time.i always go down to the library to find book.cool books.those romantic kinda.and i'm not into voilent books yet larh.slowly or one day i'll try find them and read them.hehe.and i remember that books are like tv in your head.haha.me likey.haha

anyway,
yesterday jasmine,adee,danielle and me plus dino.haha.meet up and dod grocery shopping for fine dining.it was fun though.but at that time,my rindu-ness to my hehe:D was like giler giler.then when i saw he's message.i was happy.and i called him after the video shoot.haha.i'm happy by then.ok ok.i tell you jasmine made the scallops was way woohoo!!! super yummy.i love it like siao!!! scallops cook with garlic is damn simple and good then you just add the pasta sauce is better!!! haha.jasmine next time we make again can?? i want somebody to eat see if he like it.haha.and i remember how adee face look like when he saw the scallop.haha.so funny.and danielle she look pretty darn good in the video.haha.and i hope the video MR.WILL will love it.haha.please give us A for lifeskill.we did our best though.

haha.

enjoi..

to=> muhammad suffyan bin ahmad.i miss the hell lot of you!!! haha ;)

2010-03-19T12:45:00.000-07:00

afternoon post.hmm...it's 12:45 pm.
and since i got nothing to do but,looking after 2 people my adik and rai,my nephew.both sleeping so soundly and not only that.it's raining or rainning.shit! i forgot how to spell it.my english is sick,totally sick.
hmm...anywhat i woke up early just to wait for a stupid expensive sofa.so,my parents threw away the antic sofa,that is like 21 years old this year.
sayang larh actually if we were to put away.and i miss the sofa now.hmmm...if we were to sell it on ebay.it will be like thousand plus! coz the quality of the wood is fucking damn good.can hold a heavy girl like me.hmm...

and i'm currently in my parents bedroom,just to look out for 2 people(dah macam security guard pat museum).and you know what,i want to watch 2...oh no.it's 3 movies.diary of a whimpy kid,dear john and how to train your dragon.haha.and since i had like 3 movie vouchers.i should just watch all movies within the valid date that is on 31 march.haha.style kan!? so wayang,here i can!!! haha.can't wait to watch movie liao! haha.

yesterday stories...

yesterday,didn't do much and i had like the worse day ever.seriously didn't feel good.wake up morning,do nothing but kacau'ing my nephew,even though my eyes is like half awake.then my siblings kinda argue with me about me bathing so damn late.then,in the afternoon when i was about to wash the dishes.i hit myself real hard on the cabinet door.and i almost had a headache.almost...so i tahan myself and fold the clothes.and the clothes are like one bukit merah hill.but i manage to finish it faster.then at night.i was missing someone,and massage him.but turns out we had an arguement on school stuffs.so i turn myself in.so if you readers were reading this let me tell you something.my life is getting more hectic than what i expected.i'm just not me anymore.my phone is still dead,can't even massage someone.but,i had an incoming call free.so feel free to call me.if not then nevermind.don't bother to ask me how well am i...i wonder why my life is getting useless everyday.my mind is always playing tricks on me,making me feel doubts on people...people that i love,people that i'm close with.and i seriously don't want that.but,i have no choice but to live like that.so whatever you're doing or not doing i can always know.and i always try to read people's lie.and i can know whether you're telling the truth or just plain lies.......

2010-03-17T21:37:00.000-07:00

and old song that goes like this...

ring ding dong,ring ding dong ring
dingy ding dingy ding ding ding.repeat it for how many times.
and that song will surely stuck in your head forever.

monday,
i can tell you is not a really good day,nor a good time.well,all i can say is.happy 3rd monthsary to him.haha.
it's so long but yet it's short.if you know what i mean larh.3rd month is hard.but i'll try not to make it harder.hees ;D

tuesday,
hmm...tuesday not much.but it was fun though.coz i went penin pakai baju skola dok! baik ke per! haha.
well,i can see many teens dress up pretty well.just to go penin and walk around.i guess larh.or maybe they went esplande after that.who knows eh(maner larh kiter tau.haha.).and lifeskills is like deadskills.i don't know why.but i want to have fun doing our fine dining video together.haha.

today(wednesday),
class was suppose to start at 8 but...there's always a but.
but,the class have not yet open.sway! and i saw kellis standing outside the classroom combing her hair.haha.
quite a shock.! haha.after that went to the canteen to sit for awhile larh.saw hong jun and ismail and haryani.haha.the early birds,such a good students.haha.then slowly everyone came.and surprisingly those who always came late.came early.haha.takot kene ngan si dek tuh kot.haha.
after that,pressure has come for my group.coz kellis come this idea for fyp.and it's a no no for our teachers.so now,i really need a miracle or some sign or whatever that can make our story good and happening.! argh!!!
and after school went to ehemm...to lepak with my most favourite person of all time.hehe.
you are really really the one i love larh.haha.even though we kinda "quarrel" just now.and i did cry again.he somehow manage to make me smile again.how loveable is he.oh ya! we did some random stuff like cleaning our faces and all.hehe.coolio! haha.and i...ok,this part sensored tak boleh bilang.due to my shyness.haha.
but i love him.so much.i promise you i won't let go to my one and only.haha.

enjoi!

2010-03-12T13:10:00.000-08:00

yes,i miss him.
him my love,i miss him so much.by not texting is killing me.but i will call him for a while now.hold on...

so,
found out that he's watching youtube.hehe.go go me.hehe.this few days abit ok ok larh for me.all i did is call people and clean the girls room.so it's a bit by bit thing.and my mind was into him.he took all the mind thingy.my mind.haha.ya.i miss you suffyan:D

and yes i love you many very berry times.haha.so happy to love him and to say he's name.haha.giler.well dude,if you are reading this...
first,i want to see your new phone tau.can i be the first person to touch it.? hehe.
second,my phone bill is still not yet paid.so must wait.i hope you are patient.hehe.
third,i want to watch movie during the holiday.hehe.but not boring movie.and i still want to watch alice in wonderland.i love johnny deep.he's my favourite.hehe.but how to train a dragon will be perfect.hehe.
fourth,i still keeping little by little of my cash though.to buy ehemm....hehe.
fifth,wow i really have alot to say to you dear.haha.ok
sixth,hehe.i love you !!!!!!!!!!!! alot of times!!!! many many times!!!!!!
seventh,i miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
eight,i'm just going to call you anytime.if that's ok with you.hehe;D

and done.see i'm done.haha.

enjoi.

and ako dah terkemarok ngan korg nye enjoi.pfft...

2010-03-11T05:08:00.000-08:00

i'm tired of everything.
school works are getting on my nerves.and people are just plain dumb.not knowing how i felt.it is so dumb that alot of people are getting kiasu to get on the fucking bus.and it's so irritating.pfft...asshole.
today,went to school nothing happen.same thing,sat there,do maya,went to break and return back to maya.not only that,bedok has an car accident.2 bus and a car banged into each other.tuh larh,kiasu sangat.kan aper dah jadi.banyak bodoh.hais...
i'm currently watching this malay variety cooking show.it's dumb,and i mean it.seriously dumb.
today,somebody got a new phone.can't wait to see he's new phone.going to explore everything i see.and i went to jasmine crib.and i say it's nice and a bit huge than mine.did hair,make-up and nail.hmm...i owe alot of pictures.but since i just lost my disc.then i need time to find it and download it.

and not to mention,fucking starhub cut off my line.coz kaksu didn't pay my bill.it's $100 plus and no one couldn't pay it.coz i use bloody damn much.what to do.things are just fucking expensive.money is what they care about.and life is not money,it's just life.when people are reading this blog,i swear you people are going to say that no money,you can't live.pfft....like i say,money is not everything.you can't buy love,life.GOD gave you life and feelings.and you can't make or buy or whatever shits that money can buy.so read my line MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING.those who are fucking rich then that's your pasal.i don't care.what you going to say,i don't care.you want to spam my blog.go ahead.i don't care.i just don't care every single thing.i gave up.

bye.

2010-03-05T20:00:00.000-08:00

you know what?.. because of my classmates.i got addicted to i'm a loner by cnblue.hah! haiyo...

so today.woke up and got nothing to do.i on this laptop and went to youtube and type the song.

and you know what,my heart melt when looking at them.sooooo freaking hot.so the hot stuff.hehe.seriously man.and my heart was like.got to show to kaksu.coz it's damn nice and hot sia! i mean the song kinda have this cool meaning.hah.i'm a loner.cool right.and what merepek i'm talking about larh.whatever larh.all i know is i'm so the big fan of JUNG YONGHWA,the leader eventually.muahahaha! i'm so freaking in love with their musics and their leader.haha.but don't worry,my whole heart belongs to suffyan bin ahmad.haha.oh ya! while i was clicking through youtube.i saw him and seohyun in we got married season 2.so i decided to take a look.and they happen to be a very cute couple.since they are like 2 years apart from each other.hahaha.i like them.so cute.make my heart melt man.haha.he even sings for er using the guitar.haha.and they also took picture together.so cute,so...wah!!!! hahahahahaha.

hais...

ok ok.let's stop those kpop fans for a while ok.haha.so check timing it's only 7:54 pm.hmm...so sleepy.but i won't sleep yet until my nephew is here.hehe.i want to play with him.since he's like only 6 months plus going to 7 months.haha.lambat grow pun bagos.coz now he intends to throw things.haiyo...babies they saw they throw.and their aunties are like their maids.haha.but who cares they are cute,especially when they drools.hahaha.and not only that,my nephew has like so many funny clips of him.haha.we should make a tribute man.haha.seriously speaking,my nephew is wierd you know.when he's gum are itchy,he tends to scold people and things.haha.couldn't forget how he did that at the fan ceiling.haha.kaksu video it.and it was on ifah's birthday.haha.i tell you,it is hilarious.hahahahahahahahahahaha....ok ok.stop laughing..and start saying bye.hahah

enjois...hahahaha

JUNG YONG HWA.HAHAHAHAHA! HOT DUDE.*FAINTS*

2010-03-04T23:53:00.000-08:00

weeeeeeeee!!!!!

hahahahahahahaha....

i know all of you people would probably say that i'm wierd.coz,after all those sadness post i updated last week.suddenly i change into happy mood.hahaha...
ya,i know.i'm like that.soooo...just read this fucking blog larh.uh.hahaha...

to fadhilah.
haha....girl thanks...haha...do visit macpherson uh.hehe...go look at your juniors.hahaha..jahat siak ako.but seriously just look and smile.ahahaha...and do tell me how's life and all.i want to know.haha.and maybe meet hayati.ako rindu dier banyak banyak lor.haha.dier pun ader matair.hahaha...funny.

ok....
you know what.today no class,so woke up early morning to meet jasmine and kellis plus dino(jasmine's boyfriend) at bishan.i was suppose to meet them at 11.but i reach there at 11 going to 12 or it's already 12.haha.entah larh eh.bodoh.
so went up to jucntion 8,to the arcade.then i saw them playing this cool game.haha.raser nak main.tapi kan,lain kali sudah.hahaha.then,jasmine and dino wants to play car racing.forget the name.haha.kesian....hahaha.when they were racing against this chinese dude,let me tell you that guy if fucking good sia.haha.me and kellis were like crazy monkeys keep saying "eh faster faster! ahhh!!! that guy beat you sia!" haha...we were like cheerleaders at the back.ahaha...after the race i go and get F1 cert.which is cool.i got a F1 cert i'm a FULL-TIME F1 usher.hahaha.i want to join again.dapat duit lagik.shopping habis habis.haha.tapi simpan sikit larh.hahaha.after getting the cert.
we headed down to toa payoh to hang out there.coz dino work place happens to be around there.haha.we went to drink at coffee beans.haha.then this one dude,wierd guy lah.susah nak cakap.people this days are like fucking crazy.except the ones i know.and the ones i love(you know who you are uh.hehe).hahahaha.ok then sat there talking crap....shits and stuff.oh ya! forget to say.sorry for the vulgarities in this blog.seriously speaking,i'm a nice girl actually as you can see all my histories post.you'll laugh your fucking ass out.from nerdy girl to this fucking bitch! i know.but who cares right.if you do,then that's your fucking pasal.haha.hmmm....ok...after drinking at coffee beans.we went to eat ice-cream at swenson.hahaha.cool bacin.haha.coz jasmine has an ice-cream voucher.seriously enjoys! hahahahahahahahaha.....

ok larh..pics update next week.malas dok!
hahahahahahahahahahahahhahahaha...
besok no class.gereksssss......

hahahaha

enjoi!!!!

2010-02-27T12:17:00.000-08:00

do you really love me?

i just want to know.
i'm confuse,i did many wrong things.i know.and i'm sorry.why won't you just tell me the truth about how you feel right now.what's wrong about telling the truth.
i cry everynight,thinking.what to say to you.i try my best to not make you angry.but it seems that i fail that much.i really really fail.you never show me your feelings.clearly,i can only see your anger.hais...
i know i'm wrong,but why? why won't just say something.at least say something.are you hating me now a days?
i want to know.you are treating me like i'm your friend or something.i'm so confuse.
alot of questions that i have to ask,but you din't like me asking too much.and so,i won't.but there is one question i really want to know.do you really really love me?
i know i'm being pasrah and all those shits,but the way you react infront me and through messages is like,nak tak nak nye layan.it's like you forcing yourself to talk to me.i wonder why.

yes i try my best to comfort you in any ways i can.
i hope i can.i wish i can.
and you know what,my jealousy towars you and other girls are over.but,don't go overboard.i don't like it.
when you say you want to be with me.just me,i hope what you say is true.and i hope you mean what you said.

i'm sorry if i did too many wrong things to you.i hope you forgive me,and i'll change.i'll change my entire life if i have to.but don't leave me.just don't leave me.i love you very very much.and i you do too.

that's all what my heart can say...

i miss the old you.hais....

2010-02-26T20:24:00.000-08:00

mother fucking life.

it always happen to me.i'm lost,no one bother to help me out.just no one.feel like dying.like i said no one cared,it is sad.that everyday of my life,there's always bad things happen,and no one cared.i got scolded twice today for nothing,it's like everything is my fault.hais...i think and think.what should i do to make things better.i'm a bitch,i'm full of shit.
i'm the worse person ever.fucker.!

today nothing much.
went to school,did my toon boom.and think...as usual,got stress after that.then hong jun came in and told that there's free food at mph.and i was like...yeah! free food.finally! i didn't bring alot of things today.my money,yan's jacket and eraser.funny right.eraser.....how can anyone leave their eraser at home? me.of coz.
COE was freezing cold,i almost froze to death just now.my fingers was blue mix with purple.so it's kinda like blueish-purple.something like that.and i can feel like my mouth was dry.super dry.and i was sleepy.
and the talk...hmmm...let me tell ya.it's about this one animation company or something.they showed us alot of damn cool animation.and a short animation film.haha.gecko became samurai or something.haha.but it's damn cool.i like.and they show modify cars and planes....etc....hahaa....

hmmm...
today ifah's birthday...i must say,she is disappointed.pity her very much.she couldn't get what she wanted.a nice celebration would be better.but things end up differently for her.maybe her sweet 16 doesn't sound sweet at all...well.whe you turn to that age.everything seem wrong in your eyes.so sad.....don't worry ifah,your 17th birthday.we going to make it better ok.

that's all
bye.

enjoy.

2010-02-24T23:30:00.000-08:00

before i went to bed.i want to blog.

blog about what happen recently about my stinky life.

life is as usuall.school...go home...school.
nothing is as different as every day except saturdays and sundays.i like my weekeneds because,it's a relax days and no class or school.as the matter of fact,weekends are like school holidays except that it is only for freaking 2 days.and even though it's 2 days.i just feel relax and loving it.haha.lame...

whatever it may be..just be.

today nothing special.except that the class starts at 8 and i reach at 8 plus going to 9 with my matair.super bagus,haha.but who cares.as long as i came to school and study is ok.and my brain is working is as fine as albert einstien,which i don't know why he's name suddenly pop up to my brain.wierd me.i wonder what life is all about outside? i heard it's different from school.i mean people with jobs just want to slam your head hard on the table.sheesh...better choose my career wisely.if not.die die kene hang.and no money to get married.hah!? enjoy dulu baru boleh khawin kater mak bapak.hahahaha.i feel sleepy but i don't want to sleep.kelaka maut.hmm....

anyways...
tomorrow thursday.
on the 26th february happens to be my younger sister birthday.ifah you are going 16.haha..16
SWEET 16 ceii..hehe..may you live your life happy and cheerful always.and study hard for N level ok.!!!! jia you...!!! aja aja fighting!!! we were always support you! hehe;p

2010-02-21T23:17:00.000-08:00

wahahahahaha!!!

good times,good times.

anywhat.today,not much lah happen.
went to eat breakfast at geylang.hehe.and something kept bothering me during the night.i don't know what it is,but i really do want to know.hmm...couldn't sleep right last night.seriously i don't feel right.i hope nothing wrong happen.hais...
go on.....
after munching down nasi rawon that is fucking ex..nak jual gitu mahal.bodoh punya orang.we went to walk walk at joo chiat complex i think.saw one clothes that looks like my bro-in-law's shirt.but it's like a baby size.so my kakak bought it for him.hehe.maklum lah,like father,like son.hehe..
confirm cute.hehe.anyway,watching detik.about the "famous" video tape made by one singapore artist.can't tell who.it is so feaking famous man.hmm...but i can't say anything larh.speechless man.

hmmm...whatever.
after walking we kinda took pictures.hehe.but i can't put it up now.coz i'm using laptop.i need to install my thingy first before i can put pics in.haiyo...leceh....but don't worry.i can do sooner.ok.
so...when home after that.sleep sleep.woke up,wash dishes.watch a little bit of santau.hehe.watched the last part.not that bad larh.then have to stop.coz i follwed my parents and sisters to go on a grocery shopping and look at the furniture to buy a new sofa,that we were looking.we went to tanjong katong complex actually.haha.and saw the sofa that my sister showed me.hehe.it cost about $1499.fooh!!! kocek booleh koyak rabak punye.but with gst and etc....not bad.and we kinda bought it.so the sofa will be here at chai chee,in 3 weeks in time or so.can't tell.but all i know.i can't wait for the sofa to come.hehe.then went to shop and save to bought today's dinner,wanton noodle! sedap giler bab.hahahahaha....
buy buy buy.we also bought alot of titbits.hehe.mother don't know so we kinda put everything inside.haha.when i was young.we have to ask before we put it in.but now no.haha.then payed the grocery.we saw a bubble tea shop just beside it.and bought water from there.and we also saw doughnut empire.yes we did bought something from there.a dozen doughnut.hehe.and went home.hehe..cool right my story.like grandma and grandpa story.heheheehehehehehe....but i hope you readers would like my old and dumb story.muahahahaha...please fall asleep if wish to.hahahaha....

cherio!!!
SUCKERSS!!!!

2010-02-20T16:20:00.000-08:00

"it's a start of something new.it feel so right to be here with you..oh...and now looking in your eyes,i feel in my heart...a start of something new"

hehe.like that part kinda coolio yo.haha.
anyways,today nothing much except that i kept going up and down.what i meant is that i kept going to the store under my block.so tiring,i can even excercise all the way you know.hmmm...and i'm quite tired and sleepy.and my nephew is so the hyper.he kept showing to the gate.saying that he wants to go out.go out uh.kecik kecik dah asyik-asyik nak kuar.haiyo...tak badan besar anak sedare ako nie.haha.

whatever lah.
it's raining and it's boring.and i think i want to go and sleep later on.but i need to watch some show first.hehe.hmmm...so the speechless.

ok you know what.i'm seriously need some better stories.a good one.not talking crap all the time.ya i talk crap all the time.
i may look like quiet person,but actulally i'm a talkative type of person.i talk alot of crap.and sometime people don't understand my jokes.i'm a talk crap person.hais...fucking shit.this few days i say alot of banglas.you know it scares me.why must they be such a whimp.stupid guys with no brain.it's just stupid.i feel like killing them.like what one of their people did to me was such a giggolo.argh!!! i need to find that man and i swear i got to do something to him.send him to the police maybe.or just kill him.dumb asshole.because of them.last wednesday,i was paranoid whenever a guy sat beside me(besides my boyfriend of coz.i love sitting beside him.so the nice) but other guys.pffft....SIT SOME PLACE ELSE LARH!!!!!! HAIYO....find some other girls to touch for goodness sake.! you think that you are like that.girls like my age likes it.well,think again asshole.argh!!! gosh i'm soooo freaking angry.no wonder yesterday i got a bad mood.idiot! sheesh.oh ya! this post is not for my boyfriend.he is my lover.and he is such a good person.
i love him no matter what.hehe.yes i do.hehe.ok ee...not too much.hehe.

anyway...i'm soo fast in changing my mood.hehe.wow!!! so good.well..got to run.before gorilla come and find me.yikes!
toodles!

2010-02-19T16:18:00.000-08:00

illusions,bad expression and life.

FINALLY,the laptop that i had for more then 1 years is now back ALIVE.and i can even see the screen! and i'm going out later at this hour.why why love.need to do a little bit of tidy before going.it's so tiring.my head still hurt of all that 3D work,and back bone is like hurting after i got up like 9 plus in the morning,and i'm suddenly a morning person.which i don't know why.and don't ask me why.

you know something.ever since the starting of the new year,i kept having this bad feelings that i don't even know why.and so now,i'm just going to say what i had so far.ok...

>i'm a 2nd year student.which i don't know it's good or not.guess not.hmmpf..
>had a cool boyfriend of my entire life.and found that is coolio! hehe.
>had a little bit of freedom of going home late.and i happen to be home around 8 plus everyday.haha.
>the last time i reach home late was about 11 plus.turns out that day,was not a good one.
>being traumatise by BANGLAS!!! fucking assholes people.began to hate their attitudes.suckers!
>my old friends....gone....don't know where they go or what they doing.
>studies.let me tell ya.i'm suck,i slack alot....it kills me....need to buck up from what i'm doing.
>life is as usual dead a little.apart from my love life is always fantastic.and i always remember that.
>speaking of freedom.i need to not be over taking them.ya..! need to have limits.
>lastly...what am i doing? i was suppose to be going out by then.pfft...! when will my life be this perfect as him.

and suddenly paris hilton is in my fucking tv.FUCK!
hais....i sigh alot this days.and yet today.i'm not in a good mood.hope my mood changes.
see ya!

2010-02-11T20:00:00.000-08:00

doubt.

hmm...i'm currently having a confuse feeling.sad,frustrated,stress and a little of happiness.
why? i'm happy because my boyfriend loves my cake,that i bought for him.thanks for loving it dear.pictures will be put up later.hais...i'm stress.my car isn't that good,isn't that nice and it really really looks like a jelly bean-_-"
well...heck care.
frustrated because some small matter could be a big one.why...? i don't know.hais.... :( maybe there's nothing to do or maybe.just maybe,feelings has change? :(
i'm so sian.i feel like crying again.can i? i cried in school and it hurts.yes it hurts,you know why?
my answer is.i'm stress couldn't do my 3D properly.and at that time,my head spins like a roller coster.i think i'm having migrain.hais...
i'm sad so sad that i could cry within minutes.
if YOU are reading this...i'm just going to say it here
> i'm sorry i took away YOUR own time.i shouldn't have do that.
> can i cancel my time with YOU,so that YOU can have YOUR
own time..?
> if YOU say no,then i will do anything to make YOUR grumpy face to a smiley one.i will make sure of that.
> i'm sorry for a million times,i'm sorry if i done alot of wrong things to YOU.i'm wrong,i'm bad to make YOU
angry all the time.i'm just sorry:(

that's all for you people to read about.

2010-01-29T01:15:00.000-08:00

-REMEMBER DECEMBER-

haha.a song by demi lovato.

nice song.and the tittle too.haha.you wanna know why.? i hooked up wiht HIM on the 15 of DECEMBER.haha.so this song tittle kinda reminding me to remember december.haha.cute right.i know.and i must remember december.haha.cool.but the most cool thing is of the song is....hmmm...ok...i just forget what i want to type.haiyo...short term memory loss.haha.bustard uhs otak!

anyways,
jeng..jeng...jeng...my girlfriend nette.she just sign up for ite.haha.
couldn't get the course she wants.poor her,so i told her that digital animation(which is what i'm taking right now).
learn something like visual communicatio.or what course she wants i forget.so to bernadette,when you got the letter or call.don't forget to come for the interview.haha.if you do text me.i'll accompany you.haha.

hmmm....
no class man today,at last.haha.i need a peace of mind.but i still need to come to school for this freaking health survey.you know what.? they are kreaking clever people.the said if we finish the survey,the will send movie vouchers to us.gerek or what.and they text me 3 times in a row.and they even put P.S.haha.and it is said that it is not a joke.haha.kelaka maut!

last post.......
to my sayang: i miss you,when you are not around.hope you come back fast.text me when you reach singapore.
and hope you don't go looking at mina tudung malaysia.haha!!! bustard sia.miss you lah.wny must you go?
and PLEASE REMEMBER DECEMBER! hehehehe:D

enjoys!

2010-01-24T23:00:00.000-08:00

this is shit.full of shit.draw,draw,draw.
fuck lah.some main thing of my drawing,they sucks to the core.there's no use of making it better.
haiz...sometime i wish i could be better than anyone,or everyone.
but being better is not that good.hmm....i feel saying this but i can't,coz i know you'll be reading this anyway.
so i skip it.
*sigh*
anyway.to my dear,thanks for comforting me.i love you.i try my best to finish what i can by i don't know before 5am.pfft...!!
stress.must tahan,and my face came out alot of pimples for goodness sake! 3 things i need to take care of
>my face
>homework
>my stupid drawing in my sketch book.

so my last says before i post my shit out.
my life is now officially full and covered.if you readers know what i mean dumbass...

2010-01-23T23:00:00.000-08:00

this is stupid,
wait....
it's worse then stupid.

i'm hungry.can't think of anything to eat.
feel like eating italian food,but...too lazy.
maggie mee,err...definitely NO.i ate that for 3 days in a row.and i hate it.
long john silver.argh!!! ain't gonna happen.that's dumb.
macdonal,hmm...don't feel like having mac's anyway.
KFC,nothing in mind right now.
my mum's cooking...let me see...she's busy looking at her grandson.pfft!!!
dad's cooking,well.he's currently watching soccer.something versus chelsea.

the only person who cares that i'm hungry is my dad.sometimes,he cooks for us.and it's super delicious.
even though he likes to cook all those that are super expensive.like hokkien mee,can change into a seafood fried noodle,but the ingredients is still the same as hokkien mee.haha.cool kan? alamak!!..noe i feel like eating hokkien mee..pfft..and lor mee.haiyo.....

whatever la.
anyway.just now i went to KK hospital,to "teman" my nephew to go for a check-up since he's sick and all,with my kakak and bro-in-law.and the doctor told my sis,that my nephew has nothing wrong or what so ever.so much for a $80.00 bill.haha.then went to eat at KOMALAS at eat coast.ate this thing called poori.and that thing look like a bag that has feeling,but it turns out that its just an empty bread that pumps up.haha.stupid.
and the teh.fooh! sedap,bukan sedap tapi power hard core giler...i like.haha.dengar dengar power ader hard core.
haha.what only me.
ok...after eating at KOMALAS,my sis and her husband and me.went to ompa lompa.what that shit name lah.
its an expensive CHOCOLATE SHOP!!!! and its SUPER DELICIOUS AND EXPENSIVE.and of coz my sis bought it anyway.haha.i'll post the pic later.....

haix...
haha...sorry for the big letters i put it.haha.because chocolate happens to be suffyan's favourite too.hehe...
cheeky me uh.haha.i think i should make him more jealouse by typing more chocolate...chocolate...chocolate..
haha.ok tuh dah tak baik langsung,sounded macam kurang ajar nye prangai.haha.today,early morning i message him.haha.and sorry yesterday night.tertidur..and i forgot to stretch before i sleep.opps! haiz...
i remember how happy i was to get him.hehe..it's like...my first time being in love.and i love him deeply tau.and yes at school,we pretend like nothing happen.but when we're outside.we are intemidated(is that the correct spelling?),with each other.haha.and i love to hug him.hehe...hmmm...wah!!! so happy.hehe...

anyway i think i should find something to eat before my mood starts to run out,and i'll be
like incredible hulk.

haha.enjoys! b ye;D

2010-01-22T16:12:00.000-08:00

wah!!!!

tak boleh tahan lor!!

well, i decided to go home early,because i don't know why.
thought of going to sis work place.but no.
too tired,and so i sat at home.thinking what to do,where to go,and who i should go with.haha.my boyfriend???
haha.he's probably had fun skateboarding(hope you fun lah dear:D),haha.since it's been 6 days he that had not been skate and such.so i guess....ya.haha.and and i love him and i miss him sooooooo much!!!! and i'll be going to beach fiesta at sentosa with him,yey!!! happy happy me!
you know what..??
ever since i got someone whom i love so so much.my sadness are all gone.hehe.he really make my day:D and i like it.hehe....and i love you :D(please smile whenever you read my blog)

hmm....what else should i talk about.hmm...
haha:D

hmm..
i must say that my life is doing great.missing my old pals alot liao.especially that ain girl girl.haha.ain ain...
she's going to be 20 this year.haha.opps! did i say 20?.. haha.heck care uh! and this time her brithday present will be something more hmm...how should i say it...more like a 20-year-old person uses.like make-up since she likes cosmetics and etc....i'll find that particular present somehow.and yes i miss fatin,nette,and yes i admit encik siti norain nabila,that i do miss nur amira bte ismail.i remember we use to make funny noises.and she used to pinch my cheek,that really hurts alot! seriously people.her pinch is like a bomb! you won't go near her!! haha.hmm....
i do admit she's a good friend.a friend that i could talk my feeling to,a friend that really need help in reality life.a friend that laughs with me.because i'm fucking funny.haha.....haix....hmmm....

enjoy lah dey!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

2010-01-17T00:54:00.000-08:00

flu flu flu.i hate flu.it's not serious flu,it's more like temporary flu.haha.flu ader temporary eh.power ke per!? hehe:)

i'm being so happy now a days,haha.

monday-thursday
nothing much.i went to school, i hang out with my lovely boyfriend(yes,he's the loving guy ever!!! and i love him:D) and then i went home.hehe...same routine.but i like it.at least there's something new to say.haha:D

friday.
my very 1st month anniversary with him.yes it's kuku,baru 1st month.tak main,i know.but who cares,i still counted it.hehe:)
went to plaza sing,to eat at kfc.haha.i know kiter random giler.then we went to clementi to chill chill.until 6-7 plus i guess.then took 196 to head home.it's a long,slow journey to bedok.haha.but i like.hehe...then when it reach to parkway parade....came in my sister.haha.yes...she saw my mr.incredible.hehe...then he sent me to the bus stop near interchange.we chit chat,i hugged him because i don't want him to go actually.haha:D and that's all...don't want to........add more.coz some parts are meant to be private or whatever.hahaha.....

enjoy!!! :D

2010-01-10T17:55:00.000-08:00

i made my thoughts.
thoughts of my life then and now.

my life then was way,way hurtful then now.
for now and forever.i say i'm sorry.
>i'm sorry i hurt you so much.
>i'm sorry that i'm being too straight forward.
>i'm sorry if i'm sooo dumb towards you.
>i'm just sorry.that's all.

2010-01-07T23:20:00.000-08:00

fuck it lah dey!

what's on to me for the last few days is more likely nothing.went to school,study,and went home.well,not really home lah.went some where nice and cool,then i headed home.haha.....
oh ya! did i tell you that i'm now a K student in animation..?? hehe...
cool right,i know.you don't have to say it.haha.jerk!

school...school...school...hmm...
well,school,friends,who ever lah.not much different.just that i don't even know my course juniors.yet...
what have i learn in school lately...hmm...well,learn new but fucking irritating software called "maya".it's not maya my cousin,it's "maya 2010".it's a 3D software.where you can make 3D cartoon and etc...
quite good,but damn hard.need to know the irritating keys,shortcut keys and whatever is needed.the class is overall.hmm...ok i guess.at least i try.at my very least.

my private life is still safe,for now.i'm not sure lah.but i still like to keep that way.hmm...tomorrow,no 3D class.nasib...kalau tak mampos.hari hari blajar 3D,otak meletop lor...but my class will be heading to ite tampines for what shit,that i don't even want to know.
today,for the whole day,me and jasmine kept walking around the school.haha...because at first we were having lunch,then walk at the foyer to look around.because they were having cca orientation for the first year students.and it was crowded,and now-a-days.i hate crowded places.makes me feel like pushing people away from me.and i think i'm cluster phobic.and no i'm not afraid of santa claus.haha....got that from watching spongebob squarepants.haha..dumb show any way.hmm...*sigh*

what to do,what to do....

what the heck!!!

see ya! enjoys!!!!

2010-01-01T22:08:00.000-08:00

jeng jeng jeng.............

hahahahaha:)

school gonna start soon.hahaha,i must say this time.i feel 50/50 about school.
when usually i'm excited,but now.ermm...50/50.
guess half of me not really ready yet for school.but whatever its is.i still have to carry my big damn butt and drag myself to school.as usual.

well,
i just finish watching micheal jackson concert at channel 5.i love it.long time didn't see him sing and dance.since he's dead and all.and now,batman return.omfg!!! the late heath leadger is in this show right???
i'm sooooo he's huge fan.but like i said.he's dead.and my dearest nephew,he's not sleeping.he's 4 month plus.i think.very cute.and he could touch he's leg now.very very cute adorable guy,very handsome too.whenever i see babies outside,i always think of my nephew.he's sooooooo cute.i did kiss he's cheek so many times.non-stop.haha:D

oh ya!!! happy new year to all!!!!!!!!!!!! may your wish come true!!! hahahahahaha.whatever.
i must say my resolution is not that much,some of them are secrets that cannot be reveal.if you want to know.ask me personally,if not you can go and fly somewhere.hehe:)
but overall.my holidays is super super....bored and fantastic.i went to countdown with my younger sister only.cool right.hehe:) power pun ader.haha:)

last wednesday,
went to johor,pictures will be put on the next post.but now,stories.hehe:)
follow my parents to johor.ate breakfast or lunch....wait.....brunch..ok.....at kuda putih.haha
ate nasi ayam,again.but nice!!! :D
then daddy drove don't know where.and bought stuff that you guys don't need to know.then reach home around 5 plus...wait for adik and mummy and ayah..to change or what lah.and me,i tie my hair.that's all...
and went out again,went to jurong point for a while.don't know for what purpose.then around 6 or 7.went to CIVIL DEFENSE CAMP.to see my brother.hehe.and not to mention,all those mat kentalssssss...hahaha...bolds.
and after the ceremony,they had delicious refreshments.really really worth it sia.!!! nice.but i ate dumplings,and it's halal ok!!! hahaha..after all the makan...balik lepak!!! hahaha..that's what the family did....hahahahaha

and now,my stories are done.and i'm gonna eat curry puff my sister bought,and it kept calling...and i'm going to ENJOY!!!!!!!!! :D

2009-12-26T19:04:00.000-08:00

pick...a...booo!!!

hahaha:D

i'm currently at home doing nothing.but looking at my parents playing with my nephew.and smelled that
minyak telon!!! hmpf!!! hate the smell.and watching speed racer at the same time while chatting with my cousin at msn.haha.well,i've been wondering about my life lately,i really really need to find a job.because i can't take anymore.
being at home is like being in a prisonner.u know p-r-i-s-o-n-n-n-e-r....sheesh!!!

do you know.that now-a-days,i've been being so stubborn lately.firstly,is that i'm not eating much.and feel like vomitting.seriously,eating during the holidays,isn't my time of the holidays.haiyo.and my tummy,isn't doing much well this days.and my head feel so giddy,i guess school is coming and my body is not responding to it.pfft!! hahaha....

countdown is coming and i think i'll be celebrating alone,with my parents and my younger sister.haha.as usual thing sit at home.watching shows that are bored.hahahaha.and the thing is.i'm going to be 18 next year!!! yippee!!!! i know other people would say that,i'm a girl who is just reach at an legal age i think.to drink and smoke.hahaha...
but i won't be doing all those stuff.coz it's no good.haha.for people but not for me.hahaha....

whatever it is.....i got to go.ttyl peeps!!! :D smile always!!!
ENJOY!!!!! hahaha

2009-12-23T17:04:00.000-08:00

well...well...well

hehe...

anyways,i was like sitting infront of the computer staring at it.not much uhs now a days.but seriously time flies so darn fast.sheesh!
can't take my butt up you know.i want to sit at home.
i still want to watch cartoons,movies and other the darn boring stuff i do at home.

well.
last monday i was using my parents sick com.apparently my parents
computer has virus.but heck care i still going to use it anyway.
and when i was opening the internet.i found out BRITTANY MURPHEY.
was dead,and my mouth was like drop open.i mean she's the best actress,
that i ever seen.i love her acting in "the ramen girl" and "uptown girls" with DAKOTA FANNING.alot of celebs are disappearing this days.so sad.

whatever it is.
ok.i was about to tell you about my blog.
i was going through my tag.and then there's nothing i could read.
and when i was about to go to my archives.
and there you go my life stories was started on the NOVEMBER 2006
till now,DECEMBER 2009.very very long.i mean.i was sooooo young.and don't even know what love means.and now,i'm abit grown so.yeah! haha.
i miss all those stupid days i had.haha.i mean you people wouldn't believe how stupid i was before.but as time pass by,my life became to change.
and of coz,i started to change my mind,my life and my style of clothes.haha.

anyway i got to go...
hope to have fun.hahaha
last but not least.
i'lls how mu overdue pics.haha.my family outing that is like totally long long time ago.enjoy!

he looks sooooo cute!!!!

2009-12-21T15:42:00.000-08:00

ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i can't take it.anymore.i must let my feelings out.but who???
i need someone to talk to.my life is missing hell lot.and i feel i'm wasting my life fot it.it's been a few weeks
since i sat at home missing the people i love.see......LOVE.
what is wrong with me?

i need a break.from the stressing of at home.i need to get a hobby or.go out.
i need to see people i love.ya i love my people around me so much that.
OH GOD!!!!! show me to the right path to take and walk.
i can't walk alone,i won't walk alone.
i need someone to walk with me.and i hope it's you.

hmmm.......to my surprise.i miss my classmates you know.
so long i've never see them.haha.except for few people who have blogs.
hahaha.....

ok got to go.......

last words before i go.....

i cho cho you....ok done...don't even bother to ask ok....pfft!!!!

2009-12-17T00:07:00.000-08:00

many things to discribe my self.

i'm a dumb with a average kinda heart.i do have sweaty palms.i mean what the heck!
i can be rough at times,but most of the time,i'm weak.mentally weak.
i don't mind being disturb,because i'm used to it at home.....
i love to laugh,but i hate to cry...................................................dot dot dot and more dots.......

thinking,thinking,and more thinking........

blah blah blah blah................

space space space...........

silence silence silence.....

and i'm done....hahahahahahahahahaha...trick ya people!!!! muahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahaha

2009-12-14T03:10:00.000-08:00

i felt so not me right now.i'm troubled.
i lie i die,
i'm hurt i'm quiet,
i dumb when i'm numb,
i'll cry when i'm weak.

sleepy is what i feel right now.feeling a bit disappointed is what i can't avoid.
what's got in to me? am i alive?
i was before.
my heart was heavy so does my life.

anyway,just now me and my siblings we were in the kitchen with my father.
he was talking about how you can die peacefully without having doubts or regrets.
he told us,that after bathing aidilfitri.we could bring our mother to sit on the sofa.
and forgive her, and many more.then he says,if our mother cried when she smile,it means we are forgiven.
and he kept telling us,that we really really need to be independent before he pass on he's life,
which i don't even know when and i hope its not close by.i will miss him if he goes away.
or maybe i won't move on my life.haiz......

i feel like crying right now...................................

2009-12-08T21:00:00.000-08:00

what do i think about my surroundings? doesn't matter at home or outside??

let me tell you....

firstly, my siblings.wait...shall i say all of siblings has "someone" or a particular guy/girl to love with.except for me.i know that ever since yesterday.while i was waiting for something.my younger sister she was on the phone with her boyfriend/kekasih yang tersayang....well...that i don't mind.and then a few minutes after she and boyfriend chit chat.my older sister got a call by her friend or whatever they're called now.it's because my older she had this love love feeling towards him.and of coz he knows it.so both of them were on the phone.except for me.i'm the one who is alone,no one to talk to.i barely cry.like right now.i know having relationship is not good for me now.but when things go badly,who do i wanna talk to? myself? or maybe someone? i can't turn on to my parents,because they themselves have problems on their own.and i pity on them.to my brother??? he's not even here....

i guess that i'm on my own now a days.i'm pretty sure i'll be living like hell.crying alot most of the time.couldn't tell which one right or wrong.and to me love doesn't exist anymore.i'll say love is like a fantasy,it doesn't exist in real world.and its impossible to love.to people it is possible if you try hard enough.but for me i gave up on love long time ago.there's no need for me to find now.i'll just straight up my atittude,living my life as an animator,work hard if i can.
be responsible on my own things.if i had the time.i could work.just to occupy my space between work and school.don't think of relationships.friendship of coz do exist,and ya.other than that............are all gone..................

Who are you?
Turn it, can ya tell me
Who are you?
Are you still my baby?
I thought I did, but I don't know who you are
Makes it impossible to love you
Baby, it's like I'm spinnin' around
The way I feel, I don't know if we're up or if we're down
I thought I did, but I don't know who you are
It's so impossible, impossible to love you

By Joanna Leveque => It's Impossible To Love.......

2009-12-06T21:49:00.000-08:00

damian,jas(minum maintain) and afiqah....
my room..hehehees:D
during our discussion....

winny,afiqah and damian...pose ppl!!!!

those are the pics from my wonderful 2 days,1 night camp.

i know,i know.i slept in a luxurious room.with tv and air-cons.well,its at Nanyang.its like damn far from bedok.

and i didn't sleep like the whole night,its because i was hungry and feel like eating something else than the food they gave.oh ya! i forget to tell you that this camp is called EIE: EXPLORING SOMETHING ETHINICITY.i don't know what's the I stands for.too much in my mind right now.well,this camp is mainly about RACISM.yes! racist.what do i know about racist??? well.....i'm not really a racist.or should i say i'm not racist at all.you know why? because we share the same blood.we are all humans and all,except that we have different ethinic.and we do have the same brain,but some are fast,some are slow,some are intelligent,some are you know...creative,skillfull,etc...

so the first day of camp,me and danielle met at toa payoh.because i don't even know how to go there.and not only that.i'm not usually good in mornings,i get blur easily.and that's not good.move on.....

took 213 if i'm not wrong.and reach there around 7 plus in the morning.saw alot,not really alot.of peoples from other schools.and me and danielle thought that the camp is going to be 100% boring.but it turn to be OK...really fun but.i couldn't put my fun in as i was soooo,freakin tired.anyways....

we took bus and head to Nanyang.the place looks like a hostel but my team mates says that it was a hotel.than we were split into 5 groups.i was in group 4.like those friends of mine.they are fun to talk to.fun to play jokes with............but all the funs ends today.it was fast.it feels like we known each other for long long time.we told about our past and present life.ya.i hope i could i get a steady life.no worries,no broken hearted,no sadness and all.haix.....

i must say,that life will never be steady.there's always worries and sadness.love especially.i love to love by someone.someone who could hold me tight and says "i love you" many,many times.someone who could says "i love you because you're unique and always special to me".someone...just that special someone.but i guess that its hard to find someone as special as that,because i'm the one who gets hurt alot.guys who dump me.its so hard.................its just hard.......

2009-12-02T14:33:00.000-08:00

a nice view from my house.its so beautifull that i actually took it.hehehe...

anyways..exams are over and there's nothing,and i mean ain't nothing i can do but wait til 11 of dec.

its THE CLASS BBQ...

ok...seriously i need to get a cool hobby to occupy my sick sick holiday..

let's see what should i do first.

roll myself to bed,

or make my own jokes,

or sing myself to sleep,

or go on a shopping spree,

or play computer till i got no ther sites to go

or play ball,

or read some books

or go walking at bedok

or cycle myself to east coast park.ok that's too much...

that's all i could think of.boo hoo,boring much.

haha..if can i wanna go on a date with anybody,and i mean anybody who is willing to go on a silly date with me.

it can be with my friends or cousins or maybe my siblings.hahahahah...

haiya....i should have followed my mummy and daddy to johor yesterday.but its ok.at least they bought my all time wanna watch but can't cd..500 days of summer....hahahaha...YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i know what to do.i could watch that show.good good....ok bye!!!!!!!

2009-11-26T23:19:00.000-08:00

darn it man...my life is super bored.and i'm super sleepy and super bored today school..not much happen.the usual...its like i can tell what happens on monday too.since tomorrow there's no school.coz its hari raya haji.so all the poor kambing got slaughter.poor kambing.hehe.

anyway,today as i said nothing much happen.but,some of my few friends plus me were called during our DMI theory class.because of YOG thingy,of coz there's also other people from other schools came just to go for a short talk.......a very very lame,bored,all the same talk.its like been there done that talk.

and a cool colour t-shirt.luckily its in green..my most favourite colour of all.hehe......move on.after the short and bored talk.we(my friends and i) went to e202.thought of staying back and do our last project.but theres like alot of other classes using the com.hehehehe....and so i sat there doing nothing.and thought of withdrawing my money but turns out that the posb bank is like out of cash.i mean how can the posb be run out of cash??? it makes no sense at all.and that makes me starve to death...........

haha.did i tell you that i went to walk all the way to the other side of the school with jasmine and shijie...haha...wierd right.anyway thanks uhs guys.hahahaha...after walking went back to school to buy water from the vening machine.and i was left with 50 cents.i thought of buying ice milo.but the drink turn out to be ice mineral water.like what the heck man...so i decided to throw it away...

and then after that we went walking behind the school to find the others.i mean.hahahaha..gosh..i'm talking crap man today.haish.....anyway went to the street soccer...and play ball for awhile..then took pictures...of my classmates wearing CUTE ehemm....hahaha...seriously they look like gay boys...but in a CUTE way...hahaha...and all of the pictures is kinda rated 17...hahahahaha...below 16 cannot see.....hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...

so here it goes....i hope you guys won't mind right?!?!?!?! hehees ;P

aren't they look so CUTE ?!?!?!?!? hahaha.......

2009-11-25T21:32:00.000-08:00

haro haro...hahaha

not much in mind right now.haix...

monday
> well,i must say that monday wasn't really my day.firstly,i had fever,flu and cough.but i still came to school.and then i didn't bring my thumbdrive.it's because i thought of doing it in school.and i actually stay back for nothing.like what the heck!

tuesday
> met ain sunshine,i mean thank GOD its sunny and windy at the same time.haha...and ate breakfast at macdonald.pancakes as usuall.but can't finish it,coz i was too sick to chew down.haish........we chit chat about school and we kinda recall back to our secondary school days.i'm so missing everyone though.and after all the talks.we went walking at bedok in the morning.i mean we walk the whole of bedok.if i were to say tiring...hmmm...its not.because when you walk and talk at the same time.you will tend to forget about your tiredness...haha...and then after walking and talking.we went to take the bus around 12.45 or....i don't know.and i happend to reach school early or somewhat.then out of the blues.the class test appeared....and at first i looked at it.i got an big F....then my teacher told us to check it our paper in case she mark it wrongly.and in the end.....gosh....i'm actaully typing a grandma grandpa story....anyway move on....in the end...i got a D...i mean not that good and not that bad...but i wanna aim B...that's all i could aim it.i mean.......after that did my flash website...and found out that my flash has something wrong somewhere....like what a luck.and i have to like...change computers....haish........
and at last i did finish my website...YAHOOO!!!!!!!!!! but i got a feeling that website wasn't my best at all.its like damn not nice.but what the heck.and so..i reach home around 9 plus...cool huh?!?! i've become a naughty girl already hor...haish....bluek ;P

today
> went to the auditorium to watch my seniors coolsss......and fantastic short animation film.and i must say they did like WOW!!!!!! hahahahahaha...jealous jealous.and it end like around 3pm or 3 plus.and of coz i went straight home...haha....so now...all i can do is..redo'ing back my storyboard..coz i misplace it...like again....aiyo....

green is always my favourite colour.hah?!!!

2009-11-13T21:51:00.000-08:00

a nice song to begin with..hahahahaha..

ok ok...another song made the special taeyang from big bang.the hottest guy band ever!
even though i only like top and G dragon but taeyang's song are like wow! you know.

as you can see that song is mainly for heartbroken people.like, u like that person and that
person actually marry your close friend.and all you can do is sing a song for your crush.sad huh?!?!....

well i hope i won't be like her in that video clip.hahahaha.
i'm not that good in love also but i could i try right??? hahahahahahahahahaahaha...ok i super duper lame....i'm a girl who doesn't like to talk about love....or did i??? well what the heck uhs....

this few days in school are so stressful and a bit bored.and my world is like a silent hill or something.it will never brighten up.just like before.haiz...what to do.what to do.life like will never be better.its just keep going grey to black.and there's no white or green or, why am i talking colours? haiyo!.!.
from one topic to another.what's wrong with me? and my mother is talking on the phone with her grandson.haish....!!!!! non-stop man.always the grandson and sometimes the children.i mean wtf!
and my assingments so far so no good.not really good.like what right.i am not in a right schedule.haiyo....

you know what, i wanna do my work....