okey2...tomorrow is teacher's day...and guess what??? i don't even know what to waer what should buy...i mean bring...hehe...sampai nyanyok sey...nie larh...girl tk tau style ye...harap kan kakak buat kan ajer...eh2...Sabariah...tau pun kao ehk...hehe...haish nyari ako nie dah giler...semue macam tak tau gitu...hahaha...ako macam malas nak pegi skolah besok...macam tak ader mood arh...haish...aper lar nasib ako nie ehk...ako nie macam tak ader nasib...selalu kene di perintah...pasal ako nie ader lar...satu2 boleh harap kat rumah...semue macam step tak ader kerje gitu...padahal2 kan...satu suker perap dalam bilik...satu suker kluar...tak boleh duduk rumah...yang lagi satu pulak...suker benci diri sendiri...itu larh satu2 prangai adik, abang dan kakak ako...hidup memang susah nak handle...sampai kiter nak pengsan on the spot gitu...yang hati pulak susah nak carik pacaran nye...pun tak dapat...pun rase macam nak pengsan on the spot...pasl hati nie pun nak ader kawan...tau...ar...nie untuk saper2 yang bacer nie blog...korg semue lawa...semue ader hidup sendiri tapi korg kene make use of dat time...macam carik pacaran ke...carik aper2 larh...

anyway i gtg...

nak gi bat bende...


chaos!!!

i feel like i'm in the hell room...i mean by my life...i can't take it anymore...people keep pending on me...and i can't take it...is there anyone else then me??? like my ypunger sister...or maybe my brother...but me??? no way man...i don't like people to change my life...i want my life to be the way i wanted...and no one can change it...except me...and no other guy can take the life away from me...
like what i have been trough before...and i don't want to go to the same mistake again...its tiring for me...and i guess i'll say goodbye for now...while i go and eat my dinner...

goodnight...

life was meant to be precious...and can never be replace...well mine life was a bit different...just now mustaqim make me feel bad...cause its been a long time that i have never went into that class...and i really missed them so much that every single day i almost cry...well except for one person...mustaqim...hate him...he told me that i'm not his classmate his anymore...and he told me to live the place...and my friends said that last time i was his classmate...and he was like so..??? and at that time i felt bad...cause what he say was true...right now i'm not his classmate...i'm just only his schoolmate...but the most forgetable thing is that maybe in the future...i might became he's classmate again....and oh my god!!! i hate him since sec1 he's like guy who like to disgrace people...what an unforgetful memories...oh well need to go and play something...before school's end...

chaos....

I'm so bored now...what I have to do is sit here and type this to you...that's how my life goes guys...nothing to do...feel like crying...but i can't,later my dad will ask me...and he thinks I'll go crazy, just cry without reason...isn't that stupid? well I have to tell you something...I kinda hate my ex-boyfriend now a days...i know I'm a bitch but...I can't help it...usually i do have feelings for him...but now no...he's not the one for me...he's just an ordinary guy that i met few years back...but when i was with him...he's like a guy that came from heaven...he's nice, caring etc...and just he was holding my handphone...then he told me that he gave back after school...that was the first time he said to me...then near the book shop... he hold my hand and that was the first time he did that... that got me shock...and the most strangers thing is that when we're not together...he cared for me...like asking me not to go home late...and not to go out alone cause soemthing bad might happen to me...and that is so sweet...and sometime when i sleep late he kinda scold me saying...why don't you go to sleep...like that...well it seemed that they did have someone that cared for me at school...so kind..hmm...kind like a friend...hope our friendship will go a long2 way...and maybe i can help him find he's true love..then2 can get married with her...what a nice thing...i wish i could that...and he could be happy...and everyday i could see he's face feeling happy...and maybe for once he could not hurt my feelings again...like in the past...anyway i still remember that when i hang out with my friends at bedok...they make funny jokes...and its really funny...can't take it...then when i went home...i felt my stomach cramp...because of all that laughing...some people said that when you laugh you making yourself slim...is that true??? i wonder why...hmmm....maybe it was just a saying...then just now...me and one of my favourite friend on the list amira..make funny jokes using one cloth that we're holding...we laugh until we fell to the ground...then siti...keep looking at us...like we're crazy people...wait...we are the crazy people...hahaha...oh i'm starting again...

anyways

i gtg before i start to make funny jokes again...

bubye!!!

life was different it seemed horrible...no matter what you do or make things easy it still hard as ever...today my sis got cooked...i mean under her chin got cooked...by the iron...because she fainted 2 times, i think...well she doesn't want to tell our parents...most of all...when you wanna make things happen for real you can't cause what you do you can't make things happen...like no matter what you do to get with your ex-boyfriend...you can't...cause he doesn't love you anymore...and you hate so much...out of the blue he likes you back...what a jerk asshole...hmpf....i hate myself...so much and i can't take it anymore...i kinda like this song...its so good...make me feel better...its called hate that i love you...from rihann feat neyo...that's how i feel towards him...you know who...arg!!! now a days i hate him so much...he is so stinks...so mean...so intimate...so hursh...he keeps talking to me even though he already has a girlfriend...since i can't tell the story to anyone..cause they don't like him...which i don't why...you know their story i must listen...what about my story??? do they wanna listen to it??? what lies i did??? i mean i did lie alot...but its too hard to stop lying...since they don't believe me anymore...ho am i suppose to stop lying to myself and everybody around me...

anyways...school was a bit bored cause its the same old thing...you know same timetable...for one week...haish...except that i fail my maths...and i did pass my malay...and i dunno that if i could pass my EOA...or my CPA...i'm so bored at home...i wish my life could be friends at school...they could get a job and can go out at night too...but its not good when you go out at night...cause sometime something bad might happen to you...for girls lar...but guys i dunno...maybe they could get kidnapped or somehting...well i gtg need to do my homework...chaos....

anyway this few days was horrible man... i was sick for two days...i think...i can't stand on my two feet again...life drew me further back...i don't know why i hate myself always...is it because i did not choose good friends or is my getting weird as i'm getting older...maybe i am what i am...and to day i did my maths common test...i couldn't even think and i wish i could hit my head on table...i can't even concentrate...stupid head...oh well i wish that my hateness would go all away...far far away...


i don't like saying this but i have to...i hate people i hate me i hate the World...i hate everyting that is around me...i don't know why...each day i woke up with the same routine...its making me sick...i wish that i would change time and days even nights...someyime i need because i would like to watch one show...hehe... i wish i could forget all about this...because its making me more sick...cause i have enough all ready...

anyway gtg..tomorrow is malay paper....

chaos!!!