> Saturday, February 27, 2010
do you really love me?
i just want to know.
i'm confuse,i did many wrong things.i know.and i'm sorry.why won't you just tell me the truth about how you feel right now.what's wrong about telling the truth.
i cry everynight,thinking.what to say to you.i try my best to not make you angry.but it seems that i fail that much.i really really fail.you never show me your feelings.clearly,i can only see your anger.hais...
i know i'm wrong,but why? why won't just say something.at least say something.are you hating me now a days?
i want to know.you are treating me like i'm your friend or something.i'm so confuse.
alot of questions that i have to ask,but you din't like me asking too much.and so,i won't.but there is one question i really want to know.do you really really love me?
i know i'm being pasrah and all those shits,but the way you react infront me and through messages is like,nak tak nak nye layan.it's like you forcing yourself to talk to me.i wonder why.
yes i try my best to comfort you in any ways i can.
i hope i can.i wish i can.
and you know what,my jealousy towars you and other girls are over.but,don't go overboard.i don't like it.
when you say you want to be with me.just me,i hope what you say is true.and i hope you mean what you said.
i'm sorry if i did too many wrong things to you.i hope you forgive me,and i'll change.i'll change my entire life if i have to.but don't leave me.just don't leave me.i love you very very much.and i you do too.
that's all what my heart can say...
i miss the old you.hais....
i just want to know.
i'm confuse,i did many wrong things.i know.and i'm sorry.why won't you just tell me the truth about how you feel right now.what's wrong about telling the truth.
i cry everynight,thinking.what to say to you.i try my best to not make you angry.but it seems that i fail that much.i really really fail.you never show me your feelings.clearly,i can only see your anger.hais...
i know i'm wrong,but why? why won't just say something.at least say something.are you hating me now a days?
i want to know.you are treating me like i'm your friend or something.i'm so confuse.
alot of questions that i have to ask,but you din't like me asking too much.and so,i won't.but there is one question i really want to know.do you really really love me?
i know i'm being pasrah and all those shits,but the way you react infront me and through messages is like,nak tak nak nye layan.it's like you forcing yourself to talk to me.i wonder why.
yes i try my best to comfort you in any ways i can.
i hope i can.i wish i can.
and you know what,my jealousy towars you and other girls are over.but,don't go overboard.i don't like it.
when you say you want to be with me.just me,i hope what you say is true.and i hope you mean what you said.
i'm sorry if i did too many wrong things to you.i hope you forgive me,and i'll change.i'll change my entire life if i have to.but don't leave me.just don't leave me.i love you very very much.and i you do too.
that's all what my heart can say...
i miss the old you.hais....
written by me.
12:17 PM
12:17 PM
> Friday, February 26, 2010
mother fucking life.
it always happen to me.i'm lost,no one bother to help me out.just no one.feel like dying.like i said no one cared,it is sad.that everyday of my life,there's always bad things happen,and no one cared.i got scolded twice today for nothing,it's like everything is my fault.hais...i think and think.what should i do to make things better.i'm a bitch,i'm full of shit.
i'm the worse person ever.fucker.!
today nothing much.
went to school,did my toon boom.and think...as usual,got stress after that.then hong jun came in and told that there's free food at mph.and i was like...yeah! free food.finally! i didn't bring alot of things today.my money,yan's jacket and eraser.funny right.eraser.....how can anyone leave their eraser at home? me.of coz.
COE was freezing cold,i almost froze to death just now.my fingers was blue mix with purple.so it's kinda like blueish-purple.something like that.and i can feel like my mouth was dry.super dry.and i was sleepy.
and the talk...hmmm...let me tell ya.it's about this one animation company or something.they showed us alot of damn cool animation.and a short animation film.haha.gecko became samurai or something.haha.but it's damn cool.i like.and they show modify cars and planes....etc....hahaa....
hmmm...
today ifah's birthday...i must say,she is disappointed.pity her very much.she couldn't get what she wanted.a nice celebration would be better.but things end up differently for her.maybe her sweet 16 doesn't sound sweet at all...well.whe you turn to that age.everything seem wrong in your eyes.so sad.....don't worry ifah,your 17th birthday.we going to make it better ok.
that's all
bye.
enjoy.
it always happen to me.i'm lost,no one bother to help me out.just no one.feel like dying.like i said no one cared,it is sad.that everyday of my life,there's always bad things happen,and no one cared.i got scolded twice today for nothing,it's like everything is my fault.hais...i think and think.what should i do to make things better.i'm a bitch,i'm full of shit.
i'm the worse person ever.fucker.!
today nothing much.
went to school,did my toon boom.and think...as usual,got stress after that.then hong jun came in and told that there's free food at mph.and i was like...yeah! free food.finally! i didn't bring alot of things today.my money,yan's jacket and eraser.funny right.eraser.....how can anyone leave their eraser at home? me.of coz.
COE was freezing cold,i almost froze to death just now.my fingers was blue mix with purple.so it's kinda like blueish-purple.something like that.and i can feel like my mouth was dry.super dry.and i was sleepy.
and the talk...hmmm...let me tell ya.it's about this one animation company or something.they showed us alot of damn cool animation.and a short animation film.haha.gecko became samurai or something.haha.but it's damn cool.i like.and they show modify cars and planes....etc....hahaa....
hmmm...
today ifah's birthday...i must say,she is disappointed.pity her very much.she couldn't get what she wanted.a nice celebration would be better.but things end up differently for her.maybe her sweet 16 doesn't sound sweet at all...well.whe you turn to that age.everything seem wrong in your eyes.so sad.....don't worry ifah,your 17th birthday.we going to make it better ok.
that's all
bye.
enjoy.
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8:24 PM
8:24 PM
> Wednesday, February 24, 2010
before i went to bed.i want to blog.
blog about what happen recently about my stinky life.
life is as usuall.school...go home...school.
nothing is as different as every day except saturdays and sundays.i like my weekeneds because,it's a relax days and no class or school.as the matter of fact,weekends are like school holidays except that it is only for freaking 2 days.and even though it's 2 days.i just feel relax and loving it.haha.lame...
whatever it may be..just be.
today nothing special.except that the class starts at 8 and i reach at 8 plus going to 9 with my matair.super bagus,haha.but who cares.as long as i came to school and study is ok.and my brain is working is as fine as albert einstien,which i don't know why he's name suddenly pop up to my brain.wierd me.i wonder what life is all about outside? i heard it's different from school.i mean people with jobs just want to slam your head hard on the table.sheesh...better choose my career wisely.if not.die die kene hang.and no money to get married.hah!? enjoy dulu baru boleh khawin kater mak bapak.hahahaha.i feel sleepy but i don't want to sleep.kelaka maut.hmm....
anyways...
tomorrow thursday.
on the 26th february happens to be my younger sister birthday.ifah you are going 16.haha..16
SWEET 16 ceii..hehe..may you live your life happy and cheerful always.and study hard for N level ok.!!!! jia you...!!! aja aja fighting!!! we were always support you! hehe;p
blog about what happen recently about my stinky life.
life is as usuall.school...go home...school.
nothing is as different as every day except saturdays and sundays.i like my weekeneds because,it's a relax days and no class or school.as the matter of fact,weekends are like school holidays except that it is only for freaking 2 days.and even though it's 2 days.i just feel relax and loving it.haha.lame...
whatever it may be..just be.
today nothing special.except that the class starts at 8 and i reach at 8 plus going to 9 with my matair.super bagus,haha.but who cares.as long as i came to school and study is ok.and my brain is working is as fine as albert einstien,which i don't know why he's name suddenly pop up to my brain.wierd me.i wonder what life is all about outside? i heard it's different from school.i mean people with jobs just want to slam your head hard on the table.sheesh...better choose my career wisely.if not.die die kene hang.and no money to get married.hah!? enjoy dulu baru boleh khawin kater mak bapak.hahahaha.i feel sleepy but i don't want to sleep.kelaka maut.hmm....
anyways...
tomorrow thursday.
on the 26th february happens to be my younger sister birthday.ifah you are going 16.haha..16
SWEET 16 ceii..hehe..may you live your life happy and cheerful always.and study hard for N level ok.!!!! jia you...!!! aja aja fighting!!! we were always support you! hehe;p
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11:30 PM
11:30 PM
> Sunday, February 21, 2010
wahahahahaha!!!
good times,good times.
anywhat.today,not much lah happen.
went to eat breakfast at geylang.hehe.and something kept bothering me during the night.i don't know what it is,but i really do want to know.hmm...couldn't sleep right last night.seriously i don't feel right.i hope nothing wrong happen.hais...
go on.....
after munching down nasi rawon that is fucking ex..nak jual gitu mahal.bodoh punya orang.we went to walk walk at joo chiat complex i think.saw one clothes that looks like my bro-in-law's shirt.but it's like a baby size.so my kakak bought it for him.hehe.maklum lah,like father,like son.hehe..
confirm cute.hehe.anyway,watching detik.about the "famous" video tape made by one singapore artist.can't tell who.it is so feaking famous man.hmm...but i can't say anything larh.speechless man.
hmmm...whatever.
after walking we kinda took pictures.hehe.but i can't put it up now.coz i'm using laptop.i need to install my thingy first before i can put pics in.haiyo...leceh....but don't worry.i can do sooner.ok.
so...when home after that.sleep sleep.woke up,wash dishes.watch a little bit of santau.hehe.watched the last part.not that bad larh.then have to stop.coz i follwed my parents and sisters to go on a grocery shopping and look at the furniture to buy a new sofa,that we were looking.we went to tanjong katong complex actually.haha.and saw the sofa that my sister showed me.hehe.it cost about $1499.fooh!!! kocek booleh koyak rabak punye.but with gst and etc....not bad.and we kinda bought it.so the sofa will be here at chai chee,in 3 weeks in time or so.can't tell.but all i know.i can't wait for the sofa to come.hehe.then went to shop and save to bought today's dinner,wanton noodle! sedap giler bab.hahahahaha....
buy buy buy.we also bought alot of titbits.hehe.mother don't know so we kinda put everything inside.haha.when i was young.we have to ask before we put it in.but now no.haha.then payed the grocery.we saw a bubble tea shop just beside it.and bought water from there.and we also saw doughnut empire.yes we did bought something from there.a dozen doughnut.hehe.and went home.hehe..cool right my story.like grandma and grandpa story.heheheehehehehehe....but i hope you readers would like my old and dumb story.muahahahaha...please fall asleep if wish to.hahahaha....
cherio!!!
SUCKERSS!!!!
good times,good times.
anywhat.today,not much lah happen.
went to eat breakfast at geylang.hehe.and something kept bothering me during the night.i don't know what it is,but i really do want to know.hmm...couldn't sleep right last night.seriously i don't feel right.i hope nothing wrong happen.hais...
go on.....
after munching down nasi rawon that is fucking ex..nak jual gitu mahal.bodoh punya orang.we went to walk walk at joo chiat complex i think.saw one clothes that looks like my bro-in-law's shirt.but it's like a baby size.so my kakak bought it for him.hehe.maklum lah,like father,like son.hehe..
confirm cute.hehe.anyway,watching detik.about the "famous" video tape made by one singapore artist.can't tell who.it is so feaking famous man.hmm...but i can't say anything larh.speechless man.
hmmm...whatever.
after walking we kinda took pictures.hehe.but i can't put it up now.coz i'm using laptop.i need to install my thingy first before i can put pics in.haiyo...leceh....but don't worry.i can do sooner.ok.
so...when home after that.sleep sleep.woke up,wash dishes.watch a little bit of santau.hehe.watched the last part.not that bad larh.then have to stop.coz i follwed my parents and sisters to go on a grocery shopping and look at the furniture to buy a new sofa,that we were looking.we went to tanjong katong complex actually.haha.and saw the sofa that my sister showed me.hehe.it cost about $1499.fooh!!! kocek booleh koyak rabak punye.but with gst and etc....not bad.and we kinda bought it.so the sofa will be here at chai chee,in 3 weeks in time or so.can't tell.but all i know.i can't wait for the sofa to come.hehe.then went to shop and save to bought today's dinner,wanton noodle! sedap giler bab.hahahahaha....
buy buy buy.we also bought alot of titbits.hehe.mother don't know so we kinda put everything inside.haha.when i was young.we have to ask before we put it in.but now no.haha.then payed the grocery.we saw a bubble tea shop just beside it.and bought water from there.and we also saw doughnut empire.yes we did bought something from there.a dozen doughnut.hehe.and went home.hehe..cool right my story.like grandma and grandpa story.heheheehehehehehe....but i hope you readers would like my old and dumb story.muahahahaha...please fall asleep if wish to.hahahaha....
cherio!!!
SUCKERSS!!!!
written by me.
11:17 PM
11:17 PM
> Saturday, February 20, 2010
"it's a start of something new.it feel so right to be here with you..oh...and now looking in your eyes,i feel in my heart...a start of something new"
hehe.like that part kinda coolio yo.haha.
anyways,today nothing much except that i kept going up and down.what i meant is that i kept going to the store under my block.so tiring,i can even excercise all the way you know.hmmm...and i'm quite tired and sleepy.and my nephew is so the hyper.he kept showing to the gate.saying that he wants to go out.go out uh.kecik kecik dah asyik-asyik nak kuar.haiyo...tak badan besar anak sedare ako nie.haha.
whatever lah.
it's raining and it's boring.and i think i want to go and sleep later on.but i need to watch some show first.hehe.hmmm...so the speechless.
ok you know what.i'm seriously need some better stories.a good one.not talking crap all the time.ya i talk crap all the time.
i may look like quiet person,but actulally i'm a talkative type of person.i talk alot of crap.and sometime people don't understand my jokes.i'm a talk crap person.hais...fucking shit.this few days i say alot of banglas.you know it scares me.why must they be such a whimp.stupid guys with no brain.it's just stupid.i feel like killing them.like what one of their people did to me was such a giggolo.argh!!! i need to find that man and i swear i got to do something to him.send him to the police maybe.or just kill him.dumb asshole.because of them.last wednesday,i was paranoid whenever a guy sat beside me(besides my boyfriend of coz.i love sitting beside him.so the nice) but other guys.pffft....SIT SOME PLACE ELSE LARH!!!!!! HAIYO....find some other girls to touch for goodness sake.! you think that you are like that.girls like my age likes it.well,think again asshole.argh!!! gosh i'm soooo freaking angry.no wonder yesterday i got a bad mood.idiot! sheesh.oh ya! this post is not for my boyfriend.he is my lover.and he is such a good person.
i love him no matter what.hehe.yes i do.hehe.ok ee...not too much.hehe.
anyway...i'm soo fast in changing my mood.hehe.wow!!! so good.well..got to run.before gorilla come and find me.yikes!
toodles!
hehe.like that part kinda coolio yo.haha.
anyways,today nothing much except that i kept going up and down.what i meant is that i kept going to the store under my block.so tiring,i can even excercise all the way you know.hmmm...and i'm quite tired and sleepy.and my nephew is so the hyper.he kept showing to the gate.saying that he wants to go out.go out uh.kecik kecik dah asyik-asyik nak kuar.haiyo...tak badan besar anak sedare ako nie.haha.
whatever lah.
it's raining and it's boring.and i think i want to go and sleep later on.but i need to watch some show first.hehe.hmmm...so the speechless.
ok you know what.i'm seriously need some better stories.a good one.not talking crap all the time.ya i talk crap all the time.
i may look like quiet person,but actulally i'm a talkative type of person.i talk alot of crap.and sometime people don't understand my jokes.i'm a talk crap person.hais...fucking shit.this few days i say alot of banglas.you know it scares me.why must they be such a whimp.stupid guys with no brain.it's just stupid.i feel like killing them.like what one of their people did to me was such a giggolo.argh!!! i need to find that man and i swear i got to do something to him.send him to the police maybe.or just kill him.dumb asshole.because of them.last wednesday,i was paranoid whenever a guy sat beside me(besides my boyfriend of coz.i love sitting beside him.so the nice) but other guys.pffft....SIT SOME PLACE ELSE LARH!!!!!! HAIYO....find some other girls to touch for goodness sake.! you think that you are like that.girls like my age likes it.well,think again asshole.argh!!! gosh i'm soooo freaking angry.no wonder yesterday i got a bad mood.idiot! sheesh.oh ya! this post is not for my boyfriend.he is my lover.and he is such a good person.
i love him no matter what.hehe.yes i do.hehe.ok ee...not too much.hehe.
anyway...i'm soo fast in changing my mood.hehe.wow!!! so good.well..got to run.before gorilla come and find me.yikes!
toodles!
written by me.
4:20 PM
4:20 PM
> Friday, February 19, 2010
illusions,bad expression and life.
FINALLY,the laptop that i had for more then 1 years is now back ALIVE.and i can even see the screen! and i'm going out later at this hour.why why love.need to do a little bit of tidy before going.it's so tiring.my head still hurt of all that 3D work,and back bone is like hurting after i got up like 9 plus in the morning,and i'm suddenly a morning person.which i don't know why.and don't ask me why.
you know something.ever since the starting of the new year,i kept having this bad feelings that i don't even know why.and so now,i'm just going to say what i had so far.ok...
>i'm a 2nd year student.which i don't know it's good or not.guess not.hmmpf..
>had a cool boyfriend of my entire life.and found that is coolio! hehe.
>had a little bit of freedom of going home late.and i happen to be home around 8 plus everyday.haha.
>the last time i reach home late was about 11 plus.turns out that day,was not a good one.
>being traumatise by BANGLAS!!! fucking assholes people.began to hate their attitudes.suckers!
>my old friends....gone....don't know where they go or what they doing.
>studies.let me tell ya.i'm suck,i slack alot....it kills me....need to buck up from what i'm doing.
>life is as usual dead a little.apart from my love life is always fantastic.and i always remember that.
>speaking of freedom.i need to not be over taking them.ya..! need to have limits.
>lastly...what am i doing? i was suppose to be going out by then.pfft...! when will my life be this perfect as him.
and suddenly paris hilton is in my fucking tv.FUCK!
hais....i sigh alot this days.and yet today.i'm not in a good mood.hope my mood changes.
see ya!
FINALLY,the laptop that i had for more then 1 years is now back ALIVE.and i can even see the screen! and i'm going out later at this hour.why why love.need to do a little bit of tidy before going.it's so tiring.my head still hurt of all that 3D work,and back bone is like hurting after i got up like 9 plus in the morning,and i'm suddenly a morning person.which i don't know why.and don't ask me why.
you know something.ever since the starting of the new year,i kept having this bad feelings that i don't even know why.and so now,i'm just going to say what i had so far.ok...
>i'm a 2nd year student.which i don't know it's good or not.guess not.hmmpf..
>had a cool boyfriend of my entire life.and found that is coolio! hehe.
>had a little bit of freedom of going home late.and i happen to be home around 8 plus everyday.haha.
>the last time i reach home late was about 11 plus.turns out that day,was not a good one.
>being traumatise by BANGLAS!!! fucking assholes people.began to hate their attitudes.suckers!
>my old friends....gone....don't know where they go or what they doing.
>studies.let me tell ya.i'm suck,i slack alot....it kills me....need to buck up from what i'm doing.
>life is as usual dead a little.apart from my love life is always fantastic.and i always remember that.
>speaking of freedom.i need to not be over taking them.ya..! need to have limits.
>lastly...what am i doing? i was suppose to be going out by then.pfft...! when will my life be this perfect as him.
and suddenly paris hilton is in my fucking tv.FUCK!
hais....i sigh alot this days.and yet today.i'm not in a good mood.hope my mood changes.
see ya!
written by me.
4:18 PM
4:18 PM
> Thursday, February 11, 2010
doubt.
hmm...i'm currently having a confuse feeling.sad,frustrated,stress and a little of happiness.
why? i'm happy because my boyfriend loves my cake,that i bought for him.thanks for loving it dear.pictures will be put up later.hais...i'm stress.my car isn't that good,isn't that nice and it really really looks like a jelly bean-_-"
well...heck care.
frustrated because some small matter could be a big one.why...? i don't know.hais.... :( maybe there's nothing to do or maybe.just maybe,feelings has change? :(
i'm so sian.i feel like crying again.can i? i cried in school and it hurts.yes it hurts,you know why?
my answer is.i'm stress couldn't do my 3D properly.and at that time,my head spins like a roller coster.i think i'm having migrain.hais...
i'm sad so sad that i could cry within minutes.
if YOU are reading this...i'm just going to say it here
> i'm sorry i took away YOUR own time.i shouldn't have do that.
> can i cancel my time with YOU,so that YOU can have YOUR
own time..?
> if YOU say no,then i will do anything to make YOUR grumpy face to a smiley one.i will make sure of that.
> i'm sorry for a million times,i'm sorry if i done alot of wrong things to YOU.i'm wrong,i'm bad to make YOU
angry all the time.i'm just sorry:(
that's all for you people to read about.
hmm...i'm currently having a confuse feeling.sad,frustrated,stress and a little of happiness.
why? i'm happy because my boyfriend loves my cake,that i bought for him.thanks for loving it dear.pictures will be put up later.hais...i'm stress.my car isn't that good,isn't that nice and it really really looks like a jelly bean-_-"
well...heck care.
frustrated because some small matter could be a big one.why...? i don't know.hais.... :( maybe there's nothing to do or maybe.just maybe,feelings has change? :(
i'm so sian.i feel like crying again.can i? i cried in school and it hurts.yes it hurts,you know why?
my answer is.i'm stress couldn't do my 3D properly.and at that time,my head spins like a roller coster.i think i'm having migrain.hais...
i'm sad so sad that i could cry within minutes.
if YOU are reading this...i'm just going to say it here
> i'm sorry i took away YOUR own time.i shouldn't have do that.
> can i cancel my time with YOU,so that YOU can have YOUR
own time..?
> if YOU say no,then i will do anything to make YOUR grumpy face to a smiley one.i will make sure of that.
> i'm sorry for a million times,i'm sorry if i done alot of wrong things to YOU.i'm wrong,i'm bad to make YOU
angry all the time.i'm just sorry:(
that's all for you people to read about.
written by me.
8:00 PM
8:00 PM