> Thursday, October 30, 2008
hey bloggie long time no post huh !!!
well i just wanna see what's up with da life i had now .
and its getting a little tired . one of my family member thinks
dat she's all alone and no one wants to talk to her .
well , if she wanna know da truth . well here's da truth .
"WHAT YOU SAID TO THE BLOG IS ALL WRONG !!!
YOU SAID THAT NO ONE WANTS TO TALK TO YOU ,
AND YOU HAVE BEEN THAT WAY SINCE YOU WERE A KID !!
FUCK OFF LARH CEII ... WHEN YOU WERE A "KID"
YOU GET WHATEVER YOU WISH FOR . FRIENDS . FAMILY
AND EVERYTHING ELSE . AND NOW YOU GOT A JOB TOO .
I MEAN WHAT MORE YOU WANT !!! YOU'RE THE WANT WHO CHANGES ATITTUDE NOT US !!! YOU'RE BECOMING A BITCH !!!
YOU ALWAYS CRITICISE ME !!! SAY BAD STUFF ABOUT ME !!! AND NOW YOU THINK WE ARE IGNORING YOU !!! EH KALAO NAK CKP , CKP DEPAN2 ARH !!! KAO INGT AKO TAKOT PER !!! KAO PRANGAI GITU . BEH KAO NAK CARIK SIMPATI !!! PIGI DAH !!
LANGKAH MAYAT AKO DULU LARH SIAL !!! YOU HUMILIATED ME AND IFAH AT YOUR FUCKING BLOG !!! AND WE DID NOTHING . PLUS WE PRETEND THAT NOTHING HAPPEN !!! WE ALWAYS LISTEN TO YOUR FUCKING WHINNING ABOUT YOUR PROBLEMS ABOUT YOUR WORK !!! AND NOW YOU CAN FORGET ABOUT TALKING TO US ANYMORE !! "
ONE MORE THINK IDIOT"BEFORE STARTING A CONVERSATION WITH US . YOU SHOULD APOLOGISE US FIRST . KALAO TK KAO BOLEH BERAMBOS DARI HIDOP KITER . PAHAM !!!"
well i just wanna see what's up with da life i had now .
and its getting a little tired . one of my family member thinks
dat she's all alone and no one wants to talk to her .
well , if she wanna know da truth . well here's da truth .
"WHAT YOU SAID TO THE BLOG IS ALL WRONG !!!
YOU SAID THAT NO ONE WANTS TO TALK TO YOU ,
AND YOU HAVE BEEN THAT WAY SINCE YOU WERE A KID !!
FUCK OFF LARH CEII ... WHEN YOU WERE A "KID"
YOU GET WHATEVER YOU WISH FOR . FRIENDS . FAMILY
AND EVERYTHING ELSE . AND NOW YOU GOT A JOB TOO .
I MEAN WHAT MORE YOU WANT !!! YOU'RE THE WANT WHO CHANGES ATITTUDE NOT US !!! YOU'RE BECOMING A BITCH !!!
YOU ALWAYS CRITICISE ME !!! SAY BAD STUFF ABOUT ME !!! AND NOW YOU THINK WE ARE IGNORING YOU !!! EH KALAO NAK CKP , CKP DEPAN2 ARH !!! KAO INGT AKO TAKOT PER !!! KAO PRANGAI GITU . BEH KAO NAK CARIK SIMPATI !!! PIGI DAH !!
LANGKAH MAYAT AKO DULU LARH SIAL !!! YOU HUMILIATED ME AND IFAH AT YOUR FUCKING BLOG !!! AND WE DID NOTHING . PLUS WE PRETEND THAT NOTHING HAPPEN !!! WE ALWAYS LISTEN TO YOUR FUCKING WHINNING ABOUT YOUR PROBLEMS ABOUT YOUR WORK !!! AND NOW YOU CAN FORGET ABOUT TALKING TO US ANYMORE !! "
ONE MORE THINK IDIOT"BEFORE STARTING A CONVERSATION WITH US . YOU SHOULD APOLOGISE US FIRST . KALAO TK KAO BOLEH BERAMBOS DARI HIDOP KITER . PAHAM !!!"
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2:44 PM
2:44 PM
> Tuesday, October 21, 2008
yeah ! tday i'm sooo damn happy .
coz i get to see my hottie . nad of coz atin's and NOT siti's .
too bad for siti larh . and nasib for me . muahahahahahahahax .
anyway i've just came bck frm tiong bahru . sent my sis to clinic .
punye larh jauh . tapi naik train skejap giler . anyway go on 2 da morning show .
while we were waiting for our voucher . mr sulaiman was givin us free t-shirt frm NDP .
tak abis2 ... haiz... you know atin's hot , hykel (wonder if its da correct spelling) , sat beside me .
without me noticing . i was so damn shock 2 see him sitting beside to a girl with no BEAUTY.
hahahahahahahahax . andand atin is soo jealous sampai dier nk laugh you know . hehe
and at that time mr sulaiman ask the students to pick up something from the staff room .
and he called that guy's name . and at that time i thought that after he pick the stuff . he wouldn't sit beside me
so cool off . but after he pick the things up . he slam his bag and sat beside me again !!!! i was like sooo .
irritated coz he kept looking at atin and siti . aiyo .... tak suker gue tao !!! this the last time i'm gonna
sit beside him . THE LAST TIME !!!!never ever wanna sit beside
coz i get to see my hottie . nad of coz atin's and NOT siti's .
too bad for siti larh . and nasib for me . muahahahahahahahax .
anyway i've just came bck frm tiong bahru . sent my sis to clinic .
punye larh jauh . tapi naik train skejap giler . anyway go on 2 da morning show .
while we were waiting for our voucher . mr sulaiman was givin us free t-shirt frm NDP .
tak abis2 ... haiz... you know atin's hot , hykel (wonder if its da correct spelling) , sat beside me .
without me noticing . i was so damn shock 2 see him sitting beside to a girl with no BEAUTY.
hahahahahahahahax . andand atin is soo jealous sampai dier nk laugh you know . hehe
and at that time mr sulaiman ask the students to pick up something from the staff room .
and he called that guy's name . and at that time i thought that after he pick the stuff . he wouldn't sit beside me
so cool off . but after he pick the things up . he slam his bag and sat beside me again !!!! i was like sooo .
irritated coz he kept looking at atin and siti . aiyo .... tak suker gue tao !!! this the last time i'm gonna
sit beside him . THE LAST TIME !!!!never ever wanna sit beside
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4:24 AM
4:24 AM
> Thursday, October 16, 2008
one more life .
i can't manage anymore . i feel so alone this few days .
me alone . sittin at home . with ghost surroundings . gosh !
i'm so done in my life . i mean . there is no meaning to life .
well tomorrow i'm going to ite balestier for a opinion on my future .
you know , what course to choose from . for my future .
oh ! can't wait . by the way i'm so sleepy right now . argh !!!
andand tomorrow . i have to clean da whole house coz my dad started
to get on my nerve . really . he's like a guy who talks alot and puts
all his stuff everywhere and we he's children have to pick it up .
and i have to admit he is actually a pain in the butt .
stupid ass arh .
haiyo .
and not only that . he is like the guy with legs .
and ask one of us to take water,food and sorts of things for him .
he thinks we all are his servants .
you know one day . i feel like doin that to him .
see how's he feels like .
fucker !!!!!!!!!
and he thinks that what he do . is the right thing .
and sometime . the way he talk is like sarcasting man !!!
can you imagine that .?
of coz you wouldn't , i mean you don't even know my dad .
who is actually a pain-in-the-butt guy !!!
that's it . tomorrow . i'm goin to clean this house .
until he satisfied .
stupid ass father . oh ya ! if he's children didn't do their house chores .
he beat us like mad . in other words . he abuse us . and said stuffs like
we made him feel that he is living a bunch of devils .
pfff!!! bustard .
anyway got to go .
ee signing off ..
i can't manage anymore . i feel so alone this few days .
me alone . sittin at home . with ghost surroundings . gosh !
i'm so done in my life . i mean . there is no meaning to life .
well tomorrow i'm going to ite balestier for a opinion on my future .
you know , what course to choose from . for my future .
oh ! can't wait . by the way i'm so sleepy right now . argh !!!
andand tomorrow . i have to clean da whole house coz my dad started
to get on my nerve . really . he's like a guy who talks alot and puts
all his stuff everywhere and we he's children have to pick it up .
and i have to admit he is actually a pain in the butt .
stupid ass arh .
haiyo .
and not only that . he is like the guy with legs .
and ask one of us to take water,food and sorts of things for him .
he thinks we all are his servants .
you know one day . i feel like doin that to him .
see how's he feels like .
fucker !!!!!!!!!
and he thinks that what he do . is the right thing .
and sometime . the way he talk is like sarcasting man !!!
can you imagine that .?
of coz you wouldn't , i mean you don't even know my dad .
who is actually a pain-in-the-butt guy !!!
that's it . tomorrow . i'm goin to clean this house .
until he satisfied .
stupid ass father . oh ya ! if he's children didn't do their house chores .
he beat us like mad . in other words . he abuse us . and said stuffs like
we made him feel that he is living a bunch of devils .
pfff!!! bustard .
anyway got to go .
ee signing off ..
written by me.
8:15 PM
8:15 PM
> Wednesday, October 15, 2008
my words are nothing with others .
its my ideal and you can shoot it out .
i missing school already . i'm gonna cry right now .
will i be alrite again ?
i wish i could be in that school again .
anyway i've just watch "HANA KIMI" special . woohoo!!!
shiok babey . i like the ending . good graduation they had .
andand 'ASHIYA MIZUKI' is there . happy2 me . and she had a great speech
for her 'senpais' . sweet huh . i like it . no i LOVE it so much . feel like
crying . coz the way she talk is like so touching .
of coz in that show . she's like the only girl in an ALL BOY SCHOOL .
andand she live in AMERICA . or should i say FLORIDA .
i want my life to be like her . even though she had guy friends .
she still had a girl friend to care about and support her all the way .
oh ya ! at last she went to see 'SANO IZUMI' her as so call 'BOYFRIEND(MATAIR)' which live in osaka . in a dormitary . cool . hehex .
anyway . she gave a cookies that says 'I LOVE IZUMI' . how sweet .
i wish that guy could be my boyfriend man . he's not only handsome . he is
also kakoii !!! can you spell that again ? kakoii !!! hehehx .
anyway i'm listening a song called 'MISS INDEPEDENT' from
'NEYO' whoa ! superb lar sey . and all thanks to siti .
its a bit sad2 song . but no matter what . ee like . hahahax
oh ya ! to peeps who happen to know 'YAMADA RYOSUKE'
i've already watched he's new movie with he's other member .
'SCRAP TEACHER' yerp . that show . Fooh ! power arh the show . NAKAJIMA YUTO is like the hotest dude ever . andand the next episode ,
he got beat up by gangster . sedih sey . my favourite got beaten up by gangster.
anyway . gtg . hehex . see ya ltr ..
ee signing off ...
its my ideal and you can shoot it out .
i missing school already . i'm gonna cry right now .
will i be alrite again ?
i wish i could be in that school again .
anyway i've just watch "HANA KIMI" special . woohoo!!!
shiok babey . i like the ending . good graduation they had .
andand 'ASHIYA MIZUKI' is there . happy2 me . and she had a great speech
for her 'senpais' . sweet huh . i like it . no i LOVE it so much . feel like
crying . coz the way she talk is like so touching .
of coz in that show . she's like the only girl in an ALL BOY SCHOOL .
andand she live in AMERICA . or should i say FLORIDA .
i want my life to be like her . even though she had guy friends .
she still had a girl friend to care about and support her all the way .
oh ya ! at last she went to see 'SANO IZUMI' her as so call 'BOYFRIEND(MATAIR)' which live in osaka . in a dormitary . cool . hehex .
anyway . she gave a cookies that says 'I LOVE IZUMI' . how sweet .
i wish that guy could be my boyfriend man . he's not only handsome . he is
also kakoii !!! can you spell that again ? kakoii !!! hehehx .
anyway i'm listening a song called 'MISS INDEPEDENT' from
'NEYO' whoa ! superb lar sey . and all thanks to siti .
its a bit sad2 song . but no matter what . ee like . hahahax
oh ya ! to peeps who happen to know 'YAMADA RYOSUKE'
i've already watched he's new movie with he's other member .
'SCRAP TEACHER' yerp . that show . Fooh ! power arh the show . NAKAJIMA YUTO is like the hotest dude ever . andand the next episode ,
he got beat up by gangster . sedih sey . my favourite got beaten up by gangster.
anyway . gtg . hehex . see ya ltr ..
ee signing off ...
written by me.
1:29 PM
1:29 PM
> Sunday, October 12, 2008
i'm soo damn tired today . yesterday was a tough night .
my family and i went to go rounding at west side i think . and its a bit tired .
its me,family and wak noor's family . it was a bit fun at first . but to me , my eyes
was like half dead . hahahahax . first we went to cik rashid's house . and tante
got shock coz my uncle did not tell her dat we're comin . hahahax .
but her bee hoon was so "shiok" man . so hot and spicy . it was last min cooking .
hehehehehehx . but overall . perfecto !!!
next house . well . ermmm... it was busu i think . he's . of coz .
a one spicy mee soto . wah !!!! i've been wanting to eat it .
for so long . long time ... hahahax . cool huh . after finishing my hot
and spicy mee soto . da most powderful one . my hair got mess out !!
b'coz i ate infront of the STUPID fan . hahahax .
but i fix it back . hahahahaha .
third house . wak ayie . no food . but i drank a little .
blueberry syrup . i mean who couldn't resist it .
hahahax.
ok ee you're way too much laughing .
need to stop it . ok . second last house was at .
yishun . and jeng...jeng...jeng...
rumah kepader cik mudin .
and not only dat . one of my hot cuzzie house . name SYABIL !!! SYAFIQ !!!
KAKAK LOVE U BABE !!! in my dreams larh . hahahax.
over there murtabak and soup tulang !!!
wooh !!! power babe .. hahax . and before leaving da house . i got a kiss by my favourite SYABIL !!!! YAHOO !!! dah larh handsome . but a kiss on da cheek
is way better for me . hahahahahahax . i got excited so much until
i couldn't sleep at night . hahahax . oh ya !!! last house also at yishun .
block 846 i think . rumah kepader cik jaka .
went there . feeling so hot . hahahax .
and cik nadiah gave us jap magazine . well speaking of jap . i'll show you
guys one video . ok . anyway . all those tired rounding . we got home around
1 plus . MORNING !!! oh ya da video . wait for a bit .
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1:50 PM
1:50 PM
> Thursday, October 09, 2008
alo ... alo ... kring ... kring ...
hahahahax .
shit i'm damn crazy . well that's the new me .
i'm damn freaking crazy .
well id you don't like mua . you can get the hell out of here .
well one day has pass and i have not seen my friends yet .
anyway i'll talk to ya lata .
need to go tampines for a while . heex .
k chaws baby !!!
ltr yo !!!
k stop it already .
i'm leaving after saying a proper bye bye !
ok now bye !
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6:35 PM
6:35 PM
> Wednesday, October 08, 2008
is this real ?
am i the only girl with no . no...
argh !!! forget it . its just a illusion . i began my feelings
towards this blog . because this is the only thing i could
rely on .
will gain myself back ?
i feel that i'm not me anymore .
its like . a hard rock inside of me . am i going to be cold with people ?
i don't want to feel that way , or talk that way .
it hurts people . but it hurts me 100% .
in my heart i try so hard to forget what's inside of me .
and now i had a feelings of . a fear . an unworthless girl , with
no future , no happy ending , no prince charming .
i think i can end my life here , but is the way that other people do ? is there a
way to sort it out ?
i'm really into a trap door . a black room . no air inside of me .
no loyalty . but pain ?
i feel that if i still keep living on . my world will turn up-side-down .
my heart will turn inside out .
my passion will turn ruin .
my love will turn hatred .
what i desire the most is that , living is happy for me .
living makes me feel wonderful , and living make me learn and do new things.
more challenge , more life .
but...
well i'm living the school . i have no rights to talk about it .
i have said so myself that i will NOT talk about my past . and i did . i feel so
happy not talking about it . and now . what's inside of me , is growing so fast .
its just like a seed growing in a leaves .
and soon i'm goin to cry .
please help me .
to readers . i'm sorry for i've said . this is what i'm going through .
a life without a justice .
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5:43 PM
5:43 PM
> Tuesday, October 07, 2008
YAHOO !!!
school's over baby !!! no more exams no more study2 . and no more old me !!!
but there's this one phobia that i won't overcome till the day itself .
GCE N LEVEL RESULT !!! JENG...JENG...JENG...
i had alot of nightmares recently . nightmares of me failing my maths .
i want to cry but can't . i'm so scared right now .
till i can't eat properly . i need someone to calm me down now . i don't care if that person
is a boy or a girl . as long i can overcome my phobia .
ARGH !!!! i'm so stress . just thinking of this stuff .
everyday like this . pff .. i can die man .
anyway i kinda forget to upload pics of my second time goin out raya2.
with family . hehex .
well i had only one pic . so bare with it . hahahahax . just kidding . all right.
there you go ... oh ! i almost forgot to say something
that pic , is me and cuzzie . "kakyani" .
she's my fav . but i still had many fav . hahahax .
and this friday . me going out with my friends .
WOOOHOOO !! can't wait man .
oh ya ! yesterday . me and my sis went to search some photos .
of jap guys . yerp . jap guys . hahahax . for her hp skin .
do you wanna see ? well here it is ...
taa daa ...
he's name is Chinen Yuri or Yuuri .
whatever larh . as long as his name has the correct
pronounciation .
anyway got to go lar babe .
give you more detail tomorrow .
ee signing off ...
written by me.
10:17 PM
10:17 PM
> Saturday, October 04, 2008
a different girl with a different mottor's . this is what i think when i see your face .
a split between us , and ensure your feelings towards me .
one day , one life , have been tear in my heart .
a story with an unknown ending .
why can this be done ? is it the end towards to our friendship .
can i deserve this type of friendship ?
i cry all nights . cause you take everything else .
i will not remember you anymore . because you ruin me inside out .
as i began my new story . my life won't end to it's proper way .
is this possible for me ?
can someone help me out ? i can't get out anymore .
i'm stuck in the crowd .
oh hope . could you possibly run away from me .
how can i live like this .?
as i pass out my love . i thought it cannot come again .
but it did . can i quit my life for this ?
or looking in my world ?
try to see the present , the future .
will i go ? or come back ?
is it real or is it fake ? can take a break from all of this ?
i want to run away from all this things . its impossible for me to carry on .
a swear from me
i won't smile from now on .
i won't look back to the past .
i will forget about you .
you a disgrace for me . a girl with no feelings .
and lastly .
i won't come back to myself from the past anymore .
i'm going to be the meanest person that no one will know my
feelings .
till then
ee signing off .
Labels: from me to you .
written by me.
11:20 PM
11:20 PM
> Friday, October 03, 2008
first and for most . i would like to say this to all my fellow friends and cuzzies .
SELAMAT HARI RAYA !!!
maafkn ako ya ape2 silap ako bikin selame nie ya !!!
hehehex .
anyway today i felt something strange . feel like i never feel before .
after my friend afiqah gave a very sad comment at fwenster . i started missin my friends alot
man . oh ya ! did i tell u that i almost cried after i read her comment ?
well thank goodness that i "tahan" my cryness . coz i dun wan people from my home to knw.
i told siti bout it , and she's kinda like shock .
she thought that i was dying . something like that . but i'm not .
u tell me , what for i want to die when i have not yet finish schools or having
family or whatever i'm suppose to do when i'm alive !!!
anyway today N level maths was a bit ok . all the sums is a bit easy,
but some of them i kinda forget . hehehex .
but overall its ok though .
but i still like i will FAIL !!!
tuh larh . ee . tk blajar . kn ape dh terjadi .
bodoh punya anak ar . wow !!
this few days , i feel like sleepy and hugry , but dunno wat to mkn lor .
nvr mind . let it be like this . coz i wan loose weight arh .
and to my friends . i dun wan to be gemok anymore !!
understood ??!!!
muahahahahahahahahahahahax .
wah !!! boring man me today .
and tired also arh .
hahahahahahax .
till then .
ee signing off ... fooooo !!!!
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