> Saturday, December 26, 2009
pick...a...booo!!!
hahaha:D
i'm currently at home doing nothing.but looking at my parents playing with my nephew.and smelled that
minyak telon!!! hmpf!!! hate the smell.and watching speed racer at the same time while chatting with my cousin at msn.haha.well,i've been wondering about my life lately,i really really need to find a job.because i can't take anymore.
being at home is like being in a prisonner.u know p-r-i-s-o-n-n-n-e-r....sheesh!!!
do you know.that now-a-days,i've been being so stubborn lately.firstly,is that i'm not eating much.and feel like vomitting.seriously,eating during the holidays,isn't my time of the holidays.haiyo.and my tummy,isn't doing much well this days.and my head feel so giddy,i guess school is coming and my body is not responding to it.pfft!! hahaha....
countdown is coming and i think i'll be celebrating alone,with my parents and my younger sister.haha.as usual thing sit at home.watching shows that are bored.hahahaha.and the thing is.i'm going to be 18 next year!!! yippee!!!! i know other people would say that,i'm a girl who is just reach at an legal age i think.to drink and smoke.hahaha...
but i won't be doing all those stuff.coz it's no good.haha.for people but not for me.hahaha....
whatever it is.....i got to go.ttyl peeps!!! :D smile always!!!
ENJOY!!!!! hahaha
hahaha:D
i'm currently at home doing nothing.but looking at my parents playing with my nephew.and smelled that
minyak telon!!! hmpf!!! hate the smell.and watching speed racer at the same time while chatting with my cousin at msn.haha.well,i've been wondering about my life lately,i really really need to find a job.because i can't take anymore.
being at home is like being in a prisonner.u know p-r-i-s-o-n-n-n-e-r....sheesh!!!
do you know.that now-a-days,i've been being so stubborn lately.firstly,is that i'm not eating much.and feel like vomitting.seriously,eating during the holidays,isn't my time of the holidays.haiyo.and my tummy,isn't doing much well this days.and my head feel so giddy,i guess school is coming and my body is not responding to it.pfft!! hahaha....
countdown is coming and i think i'll be celebrating alone,with my parents and my younger sister.haha.as usual thing sit at home.watching shows that are bored.hahahaha.and the thing is.i'm going to be 18 next year!!! yippee!!!! i know other people would say that,i'm a girl who is just reach at an legal age i think.to drink and smoke.hahaha...
but i won't be doing all those stuff.coz it's no good.haha.for people but not for me.hahaha....
whatever it is.....i got to go.ttyl peeps!!! :D smile always!!!
ENJOY!!!!! hahaha
written by me.
7:04 PM
7:04 PM
> Wednesday, December 23, 2009
well...well...well
hehe...
anyways,i was like sitting infront of the computer staring at it.not much uhs now a days.but seriously time flies so darn fast.sheesh!
can't take my butt up you know.i want to sit at home.
i still want to watch cartoons,movies and other the darn boring stuff i do at home.
well.
last monday i was using my parents sick com.apparently my parents
computer has virus.but heck care i still going to use it anyway.
and when i was opening the internet.i found out BRITTANY MURPHEY.
was dead,and my mouth was like drop open.i mean she's the best actress,
that i ever seen.i love her acting in "the ramen girl" and "uptown girls" with DAKOTA FANNING.alot of celebs are disappearing this days.so sad.
whatever it is.
ok.i was about to tell you about my blog.
i was going through my tag.and then there's nothing i could read.
and when i was about to go to my archives.
and there you go my life stories was started on the NOVEMBER 2006
till now,DECEMBER 2009.very very long.i mean.i was sooooo young.and don't even know what love means.and now,i'm abit grown so.yeah! haha.
i miss all those stupid days i had.haha.i mean you people wouldn't believe how stupid i was before.but as time pass by,my life became to change.
and of coz,i started to change my mind,my life and my style of clothes.haha.
anyway i got to go...
hope to have fun.hahaha
last but not least.
i'lls how mu overdue pics.haha.my family outing that is like totally long long time ago.enjoy!
he looks sooooo cute!!!!
hehe...
anyways,i was like sitting infront of the computer staring at it.not much uhs now a days.but seriously time flies so darn fast.sheesh!
can't take my butt up you know.i want to sit at home.
i still want to watch cartoons,movies and other the darn boring stuff i do at home.
well.
last monday i was using my parents sick com.apparently my parents
computer has virus.but heck care i still going to use it anyway.
and when i was opening the internet.i found out BRITTANY MURPHEY.
was dead,and my mouth was like drop open.i mean she's the best actress,
that i ever seen.i love her acting in "the ramen girl" and "uptown girls" with DAKOTA FANNING.alot of celebs are disappearing this days.so sad.
whatever it is.
ok.i was about to tell you about my blog.
i was going through my tag.and then there's nothing i could read.
and when i was about to go to my archives.
and there you go my life stories was started on the NOVEMBER 2006
till now,DECEMBER 2009.very very long.i mean.i was sooooo young.and don't even know what love means.and now,i'm abit grown so.yeah! haha.
i miss all those stupid days i had.haha.i mean you people wouldn't believe how stupid i was before.but as time pass by,my life became to change.
and of coz,i started to change my mind,my life and my style of clothes.haha.
anyway i got to go...
hope to have fun.hahaha
last but not least.
i'lls how mu overdue pics.haha.my family outing that is like totally long long time ago.enjoy!
he looks sooooo cute!!!!
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5:04 PM
5:04 PM
> Monday, December 21, 2009
ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i can't take it.anymore.i must let my feelings out.but who???
i need someone to talk to.my life is missing hell lot.and i feel i'm wasting my life fot it.it's been a few weeks
since i sat at home missing the people i love.see......LOVE.
what is wrong with me?
i need a break.from the stressing of at home.i need to get a hobby or.go out.
i need to see people i love.ya i love my people around me so much that.
OH GOD!!!!! show me to the right path to take and walk.
i can't walk alone,i won't walk alone.
i need someone to walk with me.and i hope it's you.
hmmm.......to my surprise.i miss my classmates you know.
so long i've never see them.haha.except for few people who have blogs.
hahaha.....
ok got to go.......
last words before i go.....
i cho cho you....ok done...don't even bother to ask ok....pfft!!!!
i can't take it.anymore.i must let my feelings out.but who???
i need someone to talk to.my life is missing hell lot.and i feel i'm wasting my life fot it.it's been a few weeks
since i sat at home missing the people i love.see......LOVE.
what is wrong with me?
i need a break.from the stressing of at home.i need to get a hobby or.go out.
i need to see people i love.ya i love my people around me so much that.
OH GOD!!!!! show me to the right path to take and walk.
i can't walk alone,i won't walk alone.
i need someone to walk with me.and i hope it's you.
hmmm.......to my surprise.i miss my classmates you know.
so long i've never see them.haha.except for few people who have blogs.
hahaha.....
ok got to go.......
last words before i go.....
i cho cho you....ok done...don't even bother to ask ok....pfft!!!!
written by me.
3:42 PM
3:42 PM
> Thursday, December 17, 2009
many things to discribe my self.
i'm a dumb with a average kinda heart.i do have sweaty palms.i mean what the heck!
i can be rough at times,but most of the time,i'm weak.mentally weak.
i don't mind being disturb,because i'm used to it at home.....
i love to laugh,but i hate to cry...................................................dot dot dot and more dots.......
thinking,thinking,and more thinking........
blah blah blah blah................
space space space...........
silence silence silence.....
and i'm done....hahahahahahahahahaha...trick ya people!!!! muahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahaha
i'm a dumb with a average kinda heart.i do have sweaty palms.i mean what the heck!
i can be rough at times,but most of the time,i'm weak.mentally weak.
i don't mind being disturb,because i'm used to it at home.....
i love to laugh,but i hate to cry...................................................dot dot dot and more dots.......
thinking,thinking,and more thinking........
blah blah blah blah................
space space space...........
silence silence silence.....
and i'm done....hahahahahahahahahaha...trick ya people!!!! muahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahaha
written by me.
12:07 AM
12:07 AM
> Monday, December 14, 2009
i felt so not me right now.i'm troubled.
i lie i die,
i'm hurt i'm quiet,
i dumb when i'm numb,
i'll cry when i'm weak.
sleepy is what i feel right now.feeling a bit disappointed is what i can't avoid.
what's got in to me? am i alive?
i was before.
my heart was heavy so does my life.
anyway,just now me and my siblings we were in the kitchen with my father.
he was talking about how you can die peacefully without having doubts or regrets.
he told us,that after bathing aidilfitri.we could bring our mother to sit on the sofa.
and forgive her, and many more.then he says,if our mother cried when she smile,it means we are forgiven.
and he kept telling us,that we really really need to be independent before he pass on he's life,
which i don't even know when and i hope its not close by.i will miss him if he goes away.
or maybe i won't move on my life.haiz......
i feel like crying right now...................................
i lie i die,
i'm hurt i'm quiet,
i dumb when i'm numb,
i'll cry when i'm weak.
sleepy is what i feel right now.feeling a bit disappointed is what i can't avoid.
what's got in to me? am i alive?
i was before.
my heart was heavy so does my life.
anyway,just now me and my siblings we were in the kitchen with my father.
he was talking about how you can die peacefully without having doubts or regrets.
he told us,that after bathing aidilfitri.we could bring our mother to sit on the sofa.
and forgive her, and many more.then he says,if our mother cried when she smile,it means we are forgiven.
and he kept telling us,that we really really need to be independent before he pass on he's life,
which i don't even know when and i hope its not close by.i will miss him if he goes away.
or maybe i won't move on my life.haiz......
i feel like crying right now...................................
written by me.
3:10 AM
3:10 AM
> Tuesday, December 08, 2009
what do i think about my surroundings? doesn't matter at home or outside??
let me tell you....
firstly, my siblings.wait...shall i say all of siblings has "someone" or a particular guy/girl to love with.except for me.i know that ever since yesterday.while i was waiting for something.my younger sister she was on the phone with her boyfriend/kekasih yang tersayang....well...that i don't mind.and then a few minutes after she and boyfriend chit chat.my older sister got a call by her friend or whatever they're called now.it's because my older she had this love love feeling towards him.and of coz he knows it.so both of them were on the phone.except for me.i'm the one who is alone,no one to talk to.i barely cry.like right now.i know having relationship is not good for me now.but when things go badly,who do i wanna talk to? myself? or maybe someone? i can't turn on to my parents,because they themselves have problems on their own.and i pity on them.to my brother??? he's not even here....
i guess that i'm on my own now a days.i'm pretty sure i'll be living like hell.crying alot most of the time.couldn't tell which one right or wrong.and to me love doesn't exist anymore.i'll say love is like a fantasy,it doesn't exist in real world.and its impossible to love.to people it is possible if you try hard enough.but for me i gave up on love long time ago.there's no need for me to find now.i'll just straight up my atittude,living my life as an animator,work hard if i can.
be responsible on my own things.if i had the time.i could work.just to occupy my space between work and school.don't think of relationships.friendship of coz do exist,and ya.other than that............are all gone..................
Who are you?
Turn it, can ya tell me
Who are you?
Are you still my baby?
I thought I did, but I don't know who you are
Makes it impossible to love you
Baby, it's like I'm spinnin' around
The way I feel, I don't know if we're up or if we're down
I thought I did, but I don't know who you are
It's so impossible, impossible to love you
By Joanna Leveque => It's Impossible To Love.......
let me tell you....
firstly, my siblings.wait...shall i say all of siblings has "someone" or a particular guy/girl to love with.except for me.i know that ever since yesterday.while i was waiting for something.my younger sister she was on the phone with her boyfriend/kekasih yang tersayang....well...that i don't mind.and then a few minutes after she and boyfriend chit chat.my older sister got a call by her friend or whatever they're called now.it's because my older she had this love love feeling towards him.and of coz he knows it.so both of them were on the phone.except for me.i'm the one who is alone,no one to talk to.i barely cry.like right now.i know having relationship is not good for me now.but when things go badly,who do i wanna talk to? myself? or maybe someone? i can't turn on to my parents,because they themselves have problems on their own.and i pity on them.to my brother??? he's not even here....
i guess that i'm on my own now a days.i'm pretty sure i'll be living like hell.crying alot most of the time.couldn't tell which one right or wrong.and to me love doesn't exist anymore.i'll say love is like a fantasy,it doesn't exist in real world.and its impossible to love.to people it is possible if you try hard enough.but for me i gave up on love long time ago.there's no need for me to find now.i'll just straight up my atittude,living my life as an animator,work hard if i can.
be responsible on my own things.if i had the time.i could work.just to occupy my space between work and school.don't think of relationships.friendship of coz do exist,and ya.other than that............are all gone..................
Who are you?
Turn it, can ya tell me
Who are you?
Are you still my baby?
I thought I did, but I don't know who you are
Makes it impossible to love you
Baby, it's like I'm spinnin' around
The way I feel, I don't know if we're up or if we're down
I thought I did, but I don't know who you are
It's so impossible, impossible to love you
By Joanna Leveque => It's Impossible To Love.......
written by me.
9:00 PM
9:00 PM
> Sunday, December 06, 2009
damian,jas(minum maintain) and afiqah....
my room..hehehees:D
during our discussion....
winny,afiqah and damian...pose ppl!!!!
those are the pics from my wonderful 2 days,1 night camp.
i know,i know.i slept in a luxurious room.with tv and air-cons.well,its at Nanyang.its like damn far from bedok.
and i didn't sleep like the whole night,its because i was hungry and feel like eating something else than the food they gave.oh ya! i forget to tell you that this camp is called EIE: EXPLORING SOMETHING ETHINICITY.i don't know what's the I stands for.too much in my mind right now.well,this camp is mainly about RACISM.yes! racist.what do i know about racist??? well.....i'm not really a racist.or should i say i'm not racist at all.you know why? because we share the same blood.we are all humans and all,except that we have different ethinic.and we do have the same brain,but some are fast,some are slow,some are intelligent,some are you know...creative,skillfull,etc...
so the first day of camp,me and danielle met at toa payoh.because i don't even know how to go there.and not only that.i'm not usually good in mornings,i get blur easily.and that's not good.move on.....
took 213 if i'm not wrong.and reach there around 7 plus in the morning.saw alot,not really alot.of peoples from other schools.and me and danielle thought that the camp is going to be 100% boring.but it turn to be OK...really fun but.i couldn't put my fun in as i was soooo,freakin tired.anyways....
we took bus and head to Nanyang.the place looks like a hostel but my team mates says that it was a hotel.than we were split into 5 groups.i was in group 4.like those friends of mine.they are fun to talk to.fun to play jokes with............but all the funs ends today.it was fast.it feels like we known each other for long long time.we told about our past and present life.ya.i hope i could i get a steady life.no worries,no broken hearted,no sadness and all.haix.....
i must say,that life will never be steady.there's always worries and sadness.love especially.i love to love by someone.someone who could hold me tight and says "i love you" many,many times.someone who could says "i love you because you're unique and always special to me".someone...just that special someone.but i guess that its hard to find someone as special as that,because i'm the one who gets hurt alot.guys who dump me.its so hard.................its just hard.......
written by me.
9:49 PM
9:49 PM
> Wednesday, December 02, 2009
a nice view from my house.its so beautifull that i actually took it.hehehe...
anyways..exams are over and there's nothing,and i mean ain't nothing i can do but wait til 11 of dec.
its THE CLASS BBQ...
ok...seriously i need to get a cool hobby to occupy my sick sick holiday..
let's see what should i do first.
roll myself to bed,
or make my own jokes,
or sing myself to sleep,
or go on a shopping spree,
or play computer till i got no ther sites to go
or play ball,
or read some books
or go walking at bedok
or cycle myself to east coast park.ok that's too much...
that's all i could think of.boo hoo,boring much.
haha..if can i wanna go on a date with anybody,and i mean anybody who is willing to go on a silly date with me.
it can be with my friends or cousins or maybe my siblings.hahahahah...
haiya....i should have followed my mummy and daddy to johor yesterday.but its ok.at least they bought my all time wanna watch but can't cd..500 days of summer....hahahaha...YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i know what to do.i could watch that show.good good....ok bye!!!!!!!
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2:33 PM
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