life was different it seemed horrible...no matter what you do or make things easy it still hard as ever...today my sis got cooked...i mean under her chin got cooked...by the iron...because she fainted 2 times, i think...well she doesn't want to tell our parents...most of all...when you wanna make things happen for real you can't cause what you do you can't make things happen...like no matter what you do to get with your ex-boyfriend...you can't...cause he doesn't love you anymore...and you hate so much...out of the blue he likes you back...what a jerk asshole...hmpf....i hate myself...so much and i can't take it anymore...i kinda like this song...its so good...make me feel better...its called hate that i love you...from rihann feat neyo...that's how i feel towards him...you know who...arg!!! now a days i hate him so much...he is so stinks...so mean...so intimate...so hursh...he keeps talking to me even though he already has a girlfriend...since i can't tell the story to anyone..cause they don't like him...which i don't why...you know their story i must listen...what about my story??? do they wanna listen to it??? what lies i did??? i mean i did lie alot...but its too hard to stop lying...since they don't believe me anymore...ho am i suppose to stop lying to myself and everybody around me...

anyways...school was a bit bored cause its the same old thing...you know same timetable...for one week...haish...except that i fail my maths...and i did pass my malay...and i dunno that if i could pass my EOA...or my CPA...i'm so bored at home...i wish my life could be friends at school...they could get a job and can go out at night too...but its not good when you go out at night...cause sometime something bad might happen to you...for girls lar...but guys i dunno...maybe they could get kidnapped or somehting...well i gtg need to do my homework...chaos....