> Thursday, September 27, 2007
how do you feel when people started to compare you with other people around you and the people that she been compared is proud that she is good then you???
that's how i've been...my life is been compared with my sisiter....big sis...to tell you the truth of coz....and i'm hurt because of that...i have never been compared before....wait...i think i have...with my younger sis....many people around me is good...and what bout me...is that im lazy and stupid and ugly and disgusting and many hurtful saying that is in me....oh ya, you know why i bring this subject up??? its because of kaksu....she cried which i dunno why....she didn't gave a reason....and i bet that she complain to kakak....that bitch....freak!!!! she made my life as a living hell....she can't keep away from me....i mean its irritating....i know her she loved so much to kaksu....tapi tk payah nak denki2 org ar....ako tau kao tk suker ako....yelah ako nie anak bodoh dan hodoh....ako kan adik yang tak bagus....ako nie kan tak tau jaga diri sendiri....dan ako nie adik tk guna....konon kakasu paling penting ee tak ar....PUKIMAK kao lar CHEEBYE!!!!!!! kao tak tau bertaper sakit hati ako biler kao banding kan ako dari kakak kandun ako sendiri......ako tau kaksu pernah rase mcm gitu dulu2....tapi tak serabak kan....kalao ako.....hah!!! bukan main cepat kao tk peduli kan ako....yelah ako nie mak ngn ayah yng sayang ako....tapi kao tuh dah terlebih....dulu kaksu suker kater ng akop yng dier tak dapat bende yng dier tak dapat....ar....skrg dier dah dapat dier nye barang......lepas tuh nk cembru kan ako yng dier nie ader bende baru.....ala ako peduli aper....bukan kaksu sorg per ader handphone baru.....tak lamer lagi ako pun ader.....BODOH!!!!!! ARGH!!!! geram ako....ako tak pernah rase mcm gini nye geram tau....nie kali pertame ak rase gini nye geram.....dalam hidup ako, ako tk pernah maki2 ngn org....tk denki2 ngn org.....kerna org lar denki2 ngn ako sebab tuh ako mcm gini....freak ar!!!! nevr had this feelings man....never....i mena why me??? why not other people....i mean am i the onli one in this house atau dorg nk kene2 kan ako ajer....
pls kids dun read this part where its not good for you....
FUCKING BITCH....
CHEEBYE....
PUKIMAK KAO LA....
BUTO....
BODOH......
SIAL.....
FREAKING BITCH....
i think that's all....
thx....
pls leave a comment after you read this....
thank you...and have a fucking day...bitch....
that's how i've been...my life is been compared with my sisiter....big sis...to tell you the truth of coz....and i'm hurt because of that...i have never been compared before....wait...i think i have...with my younger sis....many people around me is good...and what bout me...is that im lazy and stupid and ugly and disgusting and many hurtful saying that is in me....oh ya, you know why i bring this subject up??? its because of kaksu....she cried which i dunno why....she didn't gave a reason....and i bet that she complain to kakak....that bitch....freak!!!! she made my life as a living hell....she can't keep away from me....i mean its irritating....i know her she loved so much to kaksu....tapi tk payah nak denki2 org ar....ako tau kao tk suker ako....yelah ako nie anak bodoh dan hodoh....ako kan adik yang tak bagus....ako nie kan tak tau jaga diri sendiri....dan ako nie adik tk guna....konon kakasu paling penting ee tak ar....PUKIMAK kao lar CHEEBYE!!!!!!! kao tak tau bertaper sakit hati ako biler kao banding kan ako dari kakak kandun ako sendiri......ako tau kaksu pernah rase mcm gitu dulu2....tapi tak serabak kan....kalao ako.....hah!!! bukan main cepat kao tk peduli kan ako....yelah ako nie mak ngn ayah yng sayang ako....tapi kao tuh dah terlebih....dulu kaksu suker kater ng akop yng dier tak dapat bende yng dier tak dapat....ar....skrg dier dah dapat dier nye barang......lepas tuh nk cembru kan ako yng dier nie ader bende baru.....ala ako peduli aper....bukan kaksu sorg per ader handphone baru.....tak lamer lagi ako pun ader.....BODOH!!!!!! ARGH!!!! geram ako....ako tak pernah rase mcm gini nye geram tau....nie kali pertame ak rase gini nye geram.....dalam hidup ako, ako tk pernah maki2 ngn org....tk denki2 ngn org.....kerna org lar denki2 ngn ako sebab tuh ako mcm gini....freak ar!!!! nevr had this feelings man....never....i mena why me??? why not other people....i mean am i the onli one in this house atau dorg nk kene2 kan ako ajer....
pls kids dun read this part where its not good for you....
FUCKING BITCH....
CHEEBYE....
PUKIMAK KAO LA....
BUTO....
BODOH......
SIAL.....
FREAKING BITCH....
i think that's all....
thx....
pls leave a comment after you read this....
thank you...and have a fucking day...bitch....
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4:29 AM
4:29 AM
> Tuesday, September 25, 2007
why????
why do people like to hate me...i mean did do anything wrong to make them hate me...
i guess that im in the wrong class the wrong school....maybe i should not live my whole life in here....life sucks...if that is that way i should do it....maybe i should make my life happy....and...
maybe ill continue later....
see ya...BITCH!!!!
why do people like to hate me...i mean did do anything wrong to make them hate me...
i guess that im in the wrong class the wrong school....maybe i should not live my whole life in here....life sucks...if that is that way i should do it....maybe i should make my life happy....and...
maybe ill continue later....
see ya...BITCH!!!!
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11:00 PM
11:00 PM
> Thursday, September 20, 2007
ok2....guess that he's still my frind...i can't just bail him out....like an enemy...maklum lar ALLAH kan tak suker orang bermusuh...tk bagos....we must be friends like forever....or maybe the end of our life....until the old....i guess that i have a guy friend that is so cool....we always talk to each other....sometimes we plan this and that....but things never come out....how embarrass....nothing came out.....but i wish that i would wear the same clothes as my gyu friend....i've never had this close with a guy before.....my life with a guy can never be replace.....or anything......
okey....abotu my school....my teacher told me bout next years N level....CPA subject and my coursework is about web page.....and i'm scared....damn scared....i mean i couldn't even get a nice job like this....i mean is hard.....for me.....and i bet its not hard for bernad....she could do that type of job....its easy for her....but me....bluek!!!.....can't even do one paper....and that is paper1 or paper2.....and next year i have maths N level....im nervous now.....really2 nervous.....i can['t even eat....fell like vomiting.....sorry if i couldn't even spell the correct.....ARGH!!!!! im STRESS.....and my life now is sucks.......i couldn't even think....tak boleh buat aper2 lar yang di patut buat.....puasa nie lamer.....badan ako pulak lemah....mals nk kuar dari rumah nie.....ako nie cuma nk makan ajer.....dah tak boleh angkat lor......pening kepale gue nie....tak boleh fikir skrg....ako nie banyak fikiran....ako tak tau aper yang ako fikir.....ako tau ako main fikir ajer.....ako fikir pasl org lain....ako sendiri ako tk fikir kan.....yerlah ako nie kan tk boleh jage sendiri....sebab tuh ako tk boleh kuar ngn kawan2 ako.....takot ako hilang kat luar.....wiek!!!!......
ok la i gtg.....
okey....abotu my school....my teacher told me bout next years N level....CPA subject and my coursework is about web page.....and i'm scared....damn scared....i mean i couldn't even get a nice job like this....i mean is hard.....for me.....and i bet its not hard for bernad....she could do that type of job....its easy for her....but me....bluek!!!.....can't even do one paper....and that is paper1 or paper2.....and next year i have maths N level....im nervous now.....really2 nervous.....i can['t even eat....fell like vomiting.....sorry if i couldn't even spell the correct.....ARGH!!!!! im STRESS.....and my life now is sucks.......i couldn't even think....tak boleh buat aper2 lar yang di patut buat.....puasa nie lamer.....badan ako pulak lemah....mals nk kuar dari rumah nie.....ako nie cuma nk makan ajer.....dah tak boleh angkat lor......pening kepale gue nie....tak boleh fikir skrg....ako nie banyak fikiran....ako tak tau aper yang ako fikir.....ako tau ako main fikir ajer.....ako fikir pasl org lain....ako sendiri ako tk fikir kan.....yerlah ako nie kan tk boleh jage sendiri....sebab tuh ako tk boleh kuar ngn kawan2 ako.....takot ako hilang kat luar.....wiek!!!!......
ok la i gtg.....
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2:38 AM
2:38 AM
> Wednesday, September 19, 2007
hey...im bored...nothing to do but listening to new chinese song...its so sick that i have to sit at hoem like a stupid gerl... well wat to do...life like this can never be worth it....and i've been trying to find a perfect guy for me...and to cool or nice or hensem for me also can...eh2 ee nie...nak matair hensem ajer...hehe...mcm tkder laki lain...patut kene carik laki yng tak open minded...like others guy yng nk main ajer...mcm tkder kerje lain gitu...aper nk jadi ehk?? remaje skrg...ako pun nk hidup remaje...want to have a perfect life like others...if not i won't be able to live properly....and can't even breath properly....or many things i can't do properly....
btw i love IKUTA TOMA... he's cute...like the way he act...inside hana kimi japn...very the nice...very the cute like JIRO WANG DONG CHENG....nak kater kan duer2 org main samer character....tapi kan duer2 blh main adik berdaik.....pasl the way they act kan almost the same.....ngn mulut2 dorg tuh...kan cute....saper tk tgk....rugi....kalau saper tgk...untung...pasl dapat tgk org2 act kat dlm situ....
ok lar i gtg...
see ya...!!!
btw i love IKUTA TOMA... he's cute...like the way he act...inside hana kimi japn...very the nice...very the cute like JIRO WANG DONG CHENG....nak kater kan duer2 org main samer character....tapi kan duer2 blh main adik berdaik.....pasl the way they act kan almost the same.....ngn mulut2 dorg tuh...kan cute....saper tk tgk....rugi....kalau saper tgk...untung...pasl dapat tgk org2 act kat dlm situ....
ok lar i gtg...
see ya...!!!
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6:16 AM
6:16 AM
> Wednesday, September 12, 2007
i'm bored to death....and never had a life like this before....why??? because i've had it...with guys and everyone....i hate him and he can never leave me alone....i had it...because of him i don't wnat to have boyfriend anymore....and because of that i can't even conentrate one subject....just one subject that i can't even concetrate....and i'm sad....plus angry...i wish him good luck in everything he do....and can never come back in my life....nad i can nevr except him again...many guys in this world hurt me and i just kept it quiet....and this is not me....in my past life people can never hurt me....because i know how to care of myself, and people know that....that's why people can never hurt me....and its good
life can never stay with me ever again....i don't know why....yesterday i got a scold by my parents because we i mean by my siblings and i did not do house chores....they keep saying what we want from them...well let tell you guys this, i want my life to be freedom.... don't want to live in house that is like a jail to me....if they ask why you don't live in this house like a jail??? then i should say because what ever we do...you guys seem not to care about us...
suckers...losers...bullshits...fucking bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i can't take it anymore....anyway i got to stop here....
life can never stay with me ever again....i don't know why....yesterday i got a scold by my parents because we i mean by my siblings and i did not do house chores....they keep saying what we want from them...well let tell you guys this, i want my life to be freedom.... don't want to live in house that is like a jail to me....if they ask why you don't live in this house like a jail??? then i should say because what ever we do...you guys seem not to care about us...
suckers...losers...bullshits...fucking bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i can't take it anymore....anyway i got to stop here....
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5:13 AM
5:13 AM
> Thursday, September 06, 2007
ako ingin jatuh kan diri dari cinta...kerna ako tk suka ngn satu laki...dia lah pacaran ako...ako suka dier sebagai kawan...tapi ako tk tau mcm maner nk ckp ngn dier...
kawan ako kater ngn ako yng dier putus cinta ngn ex dier kerane ako...tapi ako tk mintak nie semue...yng ako mintak ialah menjadi persahabatan dier dan ako...dorg suroh ako kasi dier gembira...tapi ako???? ako nye bahagia dorg tk nk...ako kene kasi ako nye bahagia kat org lain...ako tk blh angkat lar...arg!!!!geram sey...i got no idea y in the first place i got bf...u noe how i much to have bf...i got no intention to have one...pasl kwn nye pasl terpakse kene accept...mcm ako nie kat dlm nerake man...anyways...i gtg see ya
kawan ako kater ngn ako yng dier putus cinta ngn ex dier kerane ako...tapi ako tk mintak nie semue...yng ako mintak ialah menjadi persahabatan dier dan ako...dorg suroh ako kasi dier gembira...tapi ako???? ako nye bahagia dorg tk nk...ako kene kasi ako nye bahagia kat org lain...ako tk blh angkat lar...arg!!!!geram sey...i got no idea y in the first place i got bf...u noe how i much to have bf...i got no intention to have one...pasl kwn nye pasl terpakse kene accept...mcm ako nie kat dlm nerake man...anyways...i gtg see ya
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