> Thursday, October 18, 2007
hey...its me again...actually i dun have anything to do...its so bored...and my second sis...she' s sick...which i dunno why...i mean how she end up sick but not me...its disappointing in me and not at her...she could do everything on her own...i mean she doesn't need me right??? she always complaining...i can't stand it...at last the one who is suffering its me but not her...ya i know that she's not a lazy person...and she could say everyone a lazy bump...including me...sob2!! in my heart i'm crying...in my heart feel the hurt...in my heart feel the illness and painful living in this world...that no one will never understand me....they just thought i'm perfect...i have a perfect life to live with...but actually, the other side of me is suffercating...can't breath, can't see the light in the sky...and can't see myself anymore...oh i need someone to help me...i need someone to let me go form this mess in my head...i'm not in the mood for a person that doesn't belong to me....well people, you may think i love being with my sis...well you might think again...i'm indeed suffering towards her but i don't want to know or show...i may feel happy in the outside but i feel sad all the way in the inside...gosh feel like i'm gonna cry...oh GOD...please help me before something bad happen...and i can't live anymore...its irritating...i have no one to turn to...except for myself...and no other person could know this....
its been a year that i'v been suffering like this...i have to listne to watever she's saying...in order to be notice by my own parents...if not, they'll give up on me...and i really have no one to turn to...its really embarress to live like this...i can't show my true feelings towards others....people thinks i'm emotional...but i'm not...i'm a girl who lives in a flat feeling lonely and just type watever she can just to feel nice for herself....well that's all...
its been a year that i'v been suffering like this...i have to listne to watever she's saying...in order to be notice by my own parents...if not, they'll give up on me...and i really have no one to turn to...its really embarress to live like this...i can't show my true feelings towards others....people thinks i'm emotional...but i'm not...i'm a girl who lives in a flat feeling lonely and just type watever she can just to feel nice for herself....well that's all...
written by me.
9:42 AM
9:42 AM
