> Thursday, July 24, 2008
hey me !!! chey mcm paham jer ako nie . well me in class rite now . having cpa lesson . and i've just finish a bit of my work . its tough though . wat to do . life's like dat rite . anyway i'm sitting in the first row . alone
eventually . well dat's me , always lonely . but i have friends to talk to . good one actually , how can i find a perfect friend ? a perfect sis and a perfect life ? its me who happens to be alone . its me who has to listen to my siblings life and its me who has to suffer alot at HOME . i'm so out of life . i feel like killing myself by stabbing at my heart , so dat i won't heal . or buy a gun and shot at my brain . or maybe jump down at the tallest building in the world . dat will be a good one . yesterday was sick . i thought of following my mum and sis to go to tiong bahru . but instead , i have to stay at home . and so i thought of ignoring her . and go to sleep . or kept quit for the rest of my life !!!
i feel i'm belong in the world called alone . alone is like a place to live in , a place to be happy and nothing to worry about . a place dat is clean so dat i could not do the chores . hehex , i have to put dat so dat my younger sis would do her house every single day . b'coz everyday i have to do her house chores . and if i did do them ,
my dad will scold and probably throw me outside da window like the last time . i don't mind him throwing me outside . cos i deserve dat . arh !!!! can't live long man . its all shit . !!! can't take it anymore . i wanna cry . i wanna be alone for now ...
and i have to go . its time to go for another class .
bubye !!!
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9:38 AM
9:38 AM
> Tuesday, July 22, 2008
today is a bit sucks coz i saw something dat i should not see . well , i read one of my sis writings just now while i was cleaning da bedroom . anyway she got a job at isetan ,
at Parkway . and i thought dat she kinda like dat job . but it turned to be the worse of her .
actually , i don't know wat does she want from life . isn't dat good working there ? as long as you working at a retail shop . u know dat she wanna have a high class job , but she does not have the application .
i'm sorry kaksu , but i have to say dis . i do care bout u and also other people in da family ,
but u gotta except wat's best for u and the family . u know dat its hard to find job dis days .
and GST dis days are high . u know wat economy dis days are like right ? try to understand it . and please don't say dat i don't understand , which i DO eventually . people dis days like to say dat i don't understand people . i do a little , but i try so hard to understand u know . i too has alot of problem . like studying and being slow in class . and not only dat .
i have to take over dis house like cleaning them . and if i ask my younger sis to help . do u think she'd help me ? do u think she wanna listen to me ? i know i'm da weakess in dis family . so please , give some time to change everything in my life . i'm tired doing things dat are simply stupid . and i'm counting my life on it .
anyway in school just now , was like bored . as usual . but my form teacher did not came .
and we can listen to music while doing our job . and yesterday i saw ...
ikhsan sey ... so happy sey . and to my dearest fren siti norain . don't call me HINDI CHICKS ok ?? nanti ako btol2 jadi hindi chicks baru tau muahahahahax . haix . feel like crying rite now , but i can't . my emotion here are like struggling so hard . can't imagine wat my future are like . is it goin to be good or was it goin to be ruin ??? to me, i've got so much to say wif so little time .
wif so many things in life , u can never let go of it , like u always do . and if u do feel like crying . how bout think twice . y are u crying for ?
anyway dats da sad side of me .
and dis is real ok ?
ee signing off ...
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7:22 PM
7:22 PM
> Wednesday, July 16, 2008
halo . halo . me now tired . to many stuff in ma mind right now . dunno y and i dun wanna know how . plz dun ask . if u did , then i shall reply dis . "I'VE SAID DAT I DUN WANNA KNOE HOW AND WHY OK !!!" . there i've said it . anyway just now i did have my GCE 'N' level oral . subject malay . yerp ... haix time flies very fast u know ...
of coz u dun know rite ... muahahahahax . so da lauya man talking .
in other words , i'm talking rubbish man . i wish to ask myself dis . am i really a truthful fren ? or am i da rude and not gd to ppl ? i wish to knoe coz i feel
like i myself changing to a bad one . well my frens if u see dis asking thinging .
do reply , coz i do really need to know . anyway . speaking bout oral .
my oral is kinda SUCK !!! ... teachers from other school kinda laughed at me just b'coz i say dat
" saya tidak pernah ada hadia kerana ramai orang tidak pernah memerhatikan saya..."
is dat funny to u ?? no rite .. anyway the invigilator are from CHIJ katong and St. Patricks ... yerp i wonder it is boys school . hahahahahahahax . sorie . got so excited oreadi lor . but overall . i managed to answer all malay question . wat i meant
the conversation . but the reading part . i felt like nervous sampai tergagap siol .
muahahahax . well its true . hehex . u noe lost words ...
anyway last sunday i went to watch a magic show at Esplanade theater . it was damn exciting and very fascinating . i've never seen a real magic show before , but dis one is so my favourite . oh ya ! my preliminary exams are coming . and still had not yet
touch my books . wat a lazy bump gerl ah . hehehex . and now i'm still watching dis stupid crazy show called 'bawang putih , bawang merah' ... haix . tak habis2 cerite nie . talder cerite lain gitu . bluek ! goblok benar cerita nya .
anyway gtg ...
no mood oreadi looks like dey want to watch this show really hard ...
bullshit man !!!
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9:21 PM
9:21 PM
> Monday, July 14, 2008
halo !!!! so tired man ... yesterdae was a disaster .... but i overcome it .. no matter wat ... well actually da true is dat ... i got a wierd stomach cramp ... and i cry oh ya !!! gtg c ya ltr
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9:36 PM
9:36 PM
> Friday, July 11, 2008
hey it's me ... sorie for the long time never update lor ... wow ee ... dat's singlish man ... muahahaha ... anyway ... about 2 hours ago ... i went out wif my best frens ... amira n zulaikha ... well actually me teman my fwen to buy her ear piece ... besar giler nye ... and dis message is for zulaikha ... if u still feeling sad and angry ... dun worry but be happy kite semue ader .. kalao
dier tk peduli atao tk percaya sama kao ... tkper ... ada banyak laki2 di dunia ... and if u still feel sad ... dun worry ok ... hehex ...
tomorrow is my NE show ... so nervous ... hahahax ... oik ... tk leh sabar
sey ako ... excited giler nye ...
anyway i got my trial prelim oreadi ... maths ... and my mark are like
expired bread man ... crushed gile nye ... haik ... need to practice my maths more ... so that i pass my N level ... and my art is getting a bit better ...
but i still hate it ... b'coz its like tawkey neo man ...
hahahax ... i think i watch too much of dat sayang sayang show on channel5
dats y i like talking like dem ... singlish man ... can't take it animore ...
i must speak in goo perfect english ... all my subject are all
crushed ... except for cpa ... b'coz cpa is easy ... i mean its computer ..
i mean who deosn't know how to use a com ..
unless u are poor ... of coz ... and btw i'm now watching
bawang putih . bawang merah ... its quite sad and quite angry ...
b'coz of da crazy poor who eventually married to an rich man and their
two step daughter met .. and all beagn to crush oreadi ... haix ...
see ya gonna watch ...
lagi pon kiter ENJOY !!!
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9:24 PM
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