> Thursday, July 24, 2008
hey me !!! chey mcm paham jer ako nie . well me in class rite now . having cpa lesson . and i've just finish a bit of my work . its tough though . wat to do . life's like dat rite . anyway i'm sitting in the first row . alone
eventually . well dat's me , always lonely . but i have friends to talk to . good one actually , how can i find a perfect friend ? a perfect sis and a perfect life ? its me who happens to be alone . its me who has to listen to my siblings life and its me who has to suffer alot at HOME . i'm so out of life . i feel like killing myself by stabbing at my heart , so dat i won't heal . or buy a gun and shot at my brain . or maybe jump down at the tallest building in the world . dat will be a good one . yesterday was sick . i thought of following my mum and sis to go to tiong bahru . but instead , i have to stay at home . and so i thought of ignoring her . and go to sleep . or kept quit for the rest of my life !!!
i feel i'm belong in the world called alone . alone is like a place to live in , a place to be happy and nothing to worry about . a place dat is clean so dat i could not do the chores . hehex , i have to put dat so dat my younger sis would do her house every single day . b'coz everyday i have to do her house chores . and if i did do them ,
my dad will scold and probably throw me outside da window like the last time . i don't mind him throwing me outside . cos i deserve dat . arh !!!! can't live long man . its all shit . !!! can't take it anymore . i wanna cry . i wanna be alone for now ...
and i have to go . its time to go for another class .
bubye !!!
written by me.
9:38 AM
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