> Wednesday, October 08, 2008
is this real ?
am i the only girl with no . no...
argh !!! forget it . its just a illusion . i began my feelings
towards this blog . because this is the only thing i could
rely on .
will gain myself back ?
i feel that i'm not me anymore .
its like . a hard rock inside of me . am i going to be cold with people ?
i don't want to feel that way , or talk that way .
it hurts people . but it hurts me 100% .
in my heart i try so hard to forget what's inside of me .
and now i had a feelings of . a fear . an unworthless girl , with
no future , no happy ending , no prince charming .
i think i can end my life here , but is the way that other people do ? is there a
way to sort it out ?
i'm really into a trap door . a black room . no air inside of me .
no loyalty . but pain ?
i feel that if i still keep living on . my world will turn up-side-down .
my heart will turn inside out .
my passion will turn ruin .
my love will turn hatred .
what i desire the most is that , living is happy for me .
living makes me feel wonderful , and living make me learn and do new things.
more challenge , more life .
but...
well i'm living the school . i have no rights to talk about it .
i have said so myself that i will NOT talk about my past . and i did . i feel so
happy not talking about it . and now . what's inside of me , is growing so fast .
its just like a seed growing in a leaves .
and soon i'm goin to cry .
please help me .
to readers . i'm sorry for i've said . this is what i'm going through .
a life without a justice .
written by me.
5:43 PM
5:43 PM
