> Saturday, February 14, 2009
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!
is all i can say for now ... what will happen to me in near the future ???
all i want is a perfect life, friends, or maybe .. just maybe , a perfect marriage.. when i'm all grown up... its goin to be just it is when i'm in secondary school years ... back to the days i've been all by myself ... pretend to smile , pretend to laugh and play along . when deep down is just the girl with no smile , just angry , no laugh but just a tears coming down from the cheeks , and play along when i felt to go.......
is it my attitude that hurts people ?
or is it that i'm too blind not to look ?
look around or reading the atmosphere is not what i'm good at . is what i'm planning to ignore it .
what is it that i'm not in ? what am i trying to look at ? what am i trying to feel ? what am i goin to do ? its all in my head ...... question is all i've got . life is what i had . and knowledge is what i'm have right now .........
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! i'm feeling sooo egoist!!!!!! why man ? i need help . i need my sister ... i needed me !!!!!!!
anyway yesterday , is the last weekdays . and i've got a gift from my boyfriend . its nice and surely one day i try to put in this bloggie ... its a heart neckalce and a earing ... he's sweet though . and i didn't expect much from him actually . and from the bottom of my heart i would say this... THANNK YOU SOOOOOOOOO MUCHHHHHHH SUHAIDEEEEE!!!!! i really appreciate it soooo muchhhh . and of coz i will treasure it with all my heart ............ ok dear !!!! anyway its my first VALENTINE give . its a shock though to me . and i .. pffff... didn't give him anything ....... so sorry !!!!! and one day . i will give him a perfect gift . since this year , he doesn't have any birthday . poor boy .... huhuhuhu!!!! its a special one which i can't tell .... hehehex . ............ ok i think that's alll i could update !!!!
adios to all my TOMODACHI!!!!!!!
is all i can say for now ... what will happen to me in near the future ???
all i want is a perfect life, friends, or maybe .. just maybe , a perfect marriage.. when i'm all grown up... its goin to be just it is when i'm in secondary school years ... back to the days i've been all by myself ... pretend to smile , pretend to laugh and play along . when deep down is just the girl with no smile , just angry , no laugh but just a tears coming down from the cheeks , and play along when i felt to go.......
is it my attitude that hurts people ?
or is it that i'm too blind not to look ?
look around or reading the atmosphere is not what i'm good at . is what i'm planning to ignore it .
what is it that i'm not in ? what am i trying to look at ? what am i trying to feel ? what am i goin to do ? its all in my head ...... question is all i've got . life is what i had . and knowledge is what i'm have right now .........
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! i'm feeling sooo egoist!!!!!! why man ? i need help . i need my sister ... i needed me !!!!!!!
anyway yesterday , is the last weekdays . and i've got a gift from my boyfriend . its nice and surely one day i try to put in this bloggie ... its a heart neckalce and a earing ... he's sweet though . and i didn't expect much from him actually . and from the bottom of my heart i would say this... THANNK YOU SOOOOOOOOO MUCHHHHHHH SUHAIDEEEEE!!!!! i really appreciate it soooo muchhhh . and of coz i will treasure it with all my heart ............ ok dear !!!! anyway its my first VALENTINE give . its a shock though to me . and i .. pffff... didn't give him anything ....... so sorry !!!!! and one day . i will give him a perfect gift . since this year , he doesn't have any birthday . poor boy .... huhuhuhu!!!! its a special one which i can't tell .... hehehex . ............ ok i think that's alll i could update !!!!
adios to all my TOMODACHI!!!!!!!
written by me.
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