> Monday, April 06, 2009
first thing to say to my dad >> you're such a disgraceful to the family . and you have no respect to your own sons and daughters . what makes me say like this because , you treat us like dirt , and there's no way your children will forgive you . what you did yesterday was so cruel . just because you're bored at home nothing to do . that doesn't mean you can pick a fight with your children . we know what we did wrong . and it's just a small matter . but kicking clothes and ask us to throw away them is not the way . mama did not do that to us . coz she knows that we big enough to think . and to think you can't even last a day to talk to us , and we know you're afraid to lose us . i mean we are BIG . kaksu is like 20 , abang is goin to be 19 soon . and me . i can work right now . if you were let me to . you know how sad for us . to always kept quiet about your attitude . and we always think that you and mama are always tired of us . we know that you guys work hard for us . we know everything . but this.....haish . can i keep up my studies ? i wish to further it . but not like this . i wish to go away . but i can't . coz i know you will look for me . worried for me . one more thing . beating us isn't the way to make us the better person . coz it hurt us more . thanks to you , your own son turn you down . and you don't know it .
anway that's for my father . i feel so sad right now . sorry for that . but its so sad for me that i need to let this out . i couldn't believe that he's treating us like servant , a maid . and to thin i can't even sleep well last night .
will this last ??? oh GOD , i'm crying right now . i never this sad before . everybody seems to change alot in this family . my brother seems to go out more often . and my sister is so busy unlike before . my mother works alot more often these days . my father is always making us living like a hell . and that leaves me and my younger sister . i hope we won't go aways . or maybe our seperate ways .
well . i'm actually alone at home . my brother went out . i don't know where . and my lil sis . i think 1 more hour she'll be home . oh well. i need to clean the house now . coz i know my father will be more mad . and who knows he may throw me out of this house .
written by me.
1:37 PM
1:37 PM
