> Tuesday, May 21, 2013
OBSTACLES.GOD. He's everything. We seek help when we in need. He gives us hope,life, obstacles. To show us that every single little thing, it's not as easy as it looks. Many people thinks that it's unfair to them. But for me, this is how life goes. There's no life if there is no problems, challenges, dramas, you name it. But at the end, you'll understand, achieve or anything. You will learn that hope will never be lost and faith comes in.
Today, I have to overcome many challenges. I was lost and nowhere to be found. I lost all my hope, my smiles, my everything. I lost it. There's no way I can make things right.
I was told that my house. Has to mortgage, my dad says that we couldn't pay it finished. That means my family is currently broke and nowhere to stay. Unless we found another home nearby. But that house, that memory, that warmth. I will never feel it again. I'm sorry, I couldn't talk any longer. I'm too sad. I'm sorry.
Today, I have to overcome many challenges. I was lost and nowhere to be found. I lost all my hope, my smiles, my everything. I lost it. There's no way I can make things right.
I was told that my house. Has to mortgage, my dad says that we couldn't pay it finished. That means my family is currently broke and nowhere to stay. Unless we found another home nearby. But that house, that memory, that warmth. I will never feel it again. I'm sorry, I couldn't talk any longer. I'm too sad. I'm sorry.
written by me.
7:23 PM
7:23 PM
> Sunday, May 19, 2013
work.friends.lifework. they are shitty, evil hogs and poisonous things ever. have you ever encounter this kind of shitty works before.? i know i have.
you know, i have a very terrible Monday, and i must say it wasn't the best so far. firstly, i was asked to stop eating in the bus, secondly, i have to sit at the office doing nothing but staring at my laptop for the whole FUCKING day. i mean i don't know what i'll be doing later.
and to my displeasure, i have no one to share this with. i can't imagine myself crying alone, comforting myself and telling myself to be confident and positive. i don't have friends that stayed till the end. everyone seems to have the best time of their live. the worse thing is, i used to help them, listening to their stories, trying to be the best. but then i get nothing in return. everyone kept asking me, why don't i have a best-friend.
the only answer i gave was, i don't need it. i don't have it. and i don't want it. friends, they come and go. they don't stay. it's better if you have your family with you that stays. forever. i never like outsiders. really.
i feel they are like impostors with masks. i mean no offenses to those reading it. it's just that i'm insecure of myself and i don't need anyone to comment about it.
"lonenism", i wish they have it in a dictionary. so i could share people what it is all about. what lonenism people do. it is sad, but sometimes you have no choice. GOD gave you the best. but it has to go. it doesn't stays. although i wished it does.
anyways, I've been reading this amazing books from E L James. it is call the 50 shades. its a trilogy book. first book titled, 50 shades of Grey, 50 shades Darker and the third book called 50 shades freed. its a romance, but more sensual, sexy,rated kinda books. i'm quite to tell you the story, but not to worry, i will try and manage to post it someday. not today.
well i guess that's it for today's post. bye!
you know, i have a very terrible Monday, and i must say it wasn't the best so far. firstly, i was asked to stop eating in the bus, secondly, i have to sit at the office doing nothing but staring at my laptop for the whole FUCKING day. i mean i don't know what i'll be doing later.
and to my displeasure, i have no one to share this with. i can't imagine myself crying alone, comforting myself and telling myself to be confident and positive. i don't have friends that stayed till the end. everyone seems to have the best time of their live. the worse thing is, i used to help them, listening to their stories, trying to be the best. but then i get nothing in return. everyone kept asking me, why don't i have a best-friend.
the only answer i gave was, i don't need it. i don't have it. and i don't want it. friends, they come and go. they don't stay. it's better if you have your family with you that stays. forever. i never like outsiders. really.
i feel they are like impostors with masks. i mean no offenses to those reading it. it's just that i'm insecure of myself and i don't need anyone to comment about it.
"lonenism", i wish they have it in a dictionary. so i could share people what it is all about. what lonenism people do. it is sad, but sometimes you have no choice. GOD gave you the best. but it has to go. it doesn't stays. although i wished it does.
anyways, I've been reading this amazing books from E L James. it is call the 50 shades. its a trilogy book. first book titled, 50 shades of Grey, 50 shades Darker and the third book called 50 shades freed. its a romance, but more sensual, sexy,rated kinda books. i'm quite to tell you the story, but not to worry, i will try and manage to post it someday. not today.
well i guess that's it for today's post. bye!
written by me.
7:43 PM
7:43 PM
