> Wednesday, July 10, 2013
I've had my worse day, today. It hurts me more than anything. Part of it is my fault for blaming him. And the worse thing is... He left me standing there. Alone. It hurts me. A lot. I stood there, watching him go. At that point, I wondered if he will ever come back. I was at my losing point. People, they do always walk out of your life when they had enough of you. But I wasn't. I wish to run towards him to hug him and said that I'm sorry.
But I didn't. I really love him so much. That it always brings me to tears watching him left me.
I'm sorry. I was being sensitive and all. I was so afraid what would happen to my sister. She's my family. None of us, got admitted in the hospital before. If she got admitted. I will be devastated. Even though, sometimes, she's mean and everything. But she's still my sister. She's my life. Without her sometimes, I can never be me. I really hope you understand.
I love you hubby. I need you to stay here with me. I want you like how you want me.
I love you. I'm sorry.
written by me.
6:13 AM
6:13 AM
> Friday, July 05, 2013
Maybe I deserve it. Maybe you should treat me like this to make me realize that what I'm doing is wrong. Technically, I'm always the kind of girl who doesn't believe in reporting to someone whose not my husband. But I was wrong. He make me realize how important to tell someone what doing, not making him wait all the time. I've done things that not gonna be the same anymore. It's my fault. My very fault. I didn't change. I'm all screw up. I'm gonna regret if things will never be same. I'm sorry.
I love him. A lot. I can't describe how I love him. His amazing. He is caring. He is everything to me. He is so precious to me. But I let him down all the time. And he has no one to comfort. It's all my fault. He suffered so much because of me. I ruin it.
written by me.
8:42 PM
8:42 PM
